Joseph3 Posted June 24, 2013 Posted June 24, 2013 Hey LS! So... Just hear for support and need some advice. Basically, a ton of **** is gonna happen over the next month or so and as much as I love change. This is gonna be a difficult one... So First off, I found out a few days ago that I am probably going to be let go from my job that I have had for almost 6 years. Which sucks, because I will not have any income at all. Summer is hear, and I have a few trips and concerts that my friends and I are going too... But, this is only going to be for a few months since... I am going to a University about 850 miles away from home in about 2 months. I will know nobody, and be rocking my only life there for a few years. I am going to miss a lot of my friends up at home. And though it has not hit me yet. I know being without them is going to be very difficult... Since we have had a bunch of experience traveling, going to events, emotional loss, and just an amazing time... I just wish I could bring them with me Next, My passion in life has been music. Guitar to be exact. I haven't not been able to play guitar fully in the last 2 months since I have gotten carpel tunnel... I am going for surgery in the next month. Thank god, but this has great a massive gap in my life since I have played guitar almost everyday for the last 5-6 years. I feel, that my emotional self has gotten out of wack since I have not been able to clean pick up my vice... Fourth... My grandpa is about to get "called by the angels" as my mom says. This is going to be extremely hard for me. Since, he is not going to be able to see me graduate college, see me release my first album, i am not going to be able to play music for him any more. I play for him every once and awhile in the hospital since he is blind. I am tearing up just thinking about it right now... I wish he wont go... Fifth one of my ex-gf and I started a summer fling kind of deal. Well, this one is kind of on me since I knew it was going to go south. Wednesday she admits she is getting feelings for me. The next today her ex is in town and he was to get back together with her... Today she admits we should probably stop since she has feelings for her ex now. And I can tell she wants to get back together with him... Which saddens me since she is "the one that got away" I know that im going to find a girl better later, and I have so much to offer. But, sometimes I wish later was now... She is coming over tomorrow to talk about this. I just hope things go a lot smoother than I feel like they are going to go... I cant wait til its alot smoother and things can go my way... I'm trying to remain positive, and attract positive energy to me and distract myself from some of the negatives but it feels like a massive storm shooting small sharp needles at me... Slowly trying to break me down... I keep to myself a lot of the time. Even writing my feelings on here is difficult I feel like these paragraphs can take in all what I am feeling. Maybe its just so much that I cant comprehend it all Anyways... I can feel a massive release after writing all this.... Til tomorrow...
Author Joseph3 Posted June 24, 2013 Author Posted June 24, 2013 My grandpa died this morning around 5am.... Life just seems to be getting more difficult and difficult...
Balzac Posted June 24, 2013 Posted June 24, 2013 My condolence to you and your family. Being at home for this sad loss is a good thing. You'll be free of academic stress and surrounded by your close friends and family.
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