furtive Posted June 22, 2013 Posted June 22, 2013 Hi every one. I am new to the forums. I copied and pasted this from another site I posted in earlier today: Sorry for any grammar mistakes/ any mistakes at all I was really hurting when I typed this and I am too tired to fix any of it. Me and my Girl friend of 2 and a half years just broke up. She went back home to the Filipines 2 weeks ago. Her grandma was dieing. Her Grand Ma passed away while she was over there and they had a funeral and every thing. She was there for 2 weeks. In those 2 weeks I realized how much I loved her and how I wanted to be with her. I was hoping that when she got back we could just work at it and try to be happy with minimal problems. I was wrong. When she got back she was really distant and Not her self. I told my self Okay. Her grandma just died ill be supportive/ give her some time to work things out. (Her grandma raised her for 14 years.) Tonight we got in a arguement. And one thing let to another and I asked why are we together. She said I dont know. I asked her if she loved me. She said no. She said she realized she wanted to be home (In the philipines) she realized how much she missed home. (She came here 5 years ago) and thats all she wanted. To go home to be there with her friends and family. (Its just her and her mom here) I told her what does that mean for us? Do you care if Were not together? She said no. She doesnt care any more. That she doesnt feel what she felt before she left. And all together she said. I do not Love you any more. I hope you find some else you can love, I hope she will love you too. After arguing I told her to tell me in person and to bring all my stuff back. Everything. She came and we talked. It was dark but I could make out her silhouette, How beautiful she looked. All I wanted was to hug her, and kiss her, and for her to tell me it would all be okay. That she still loved me. But nope. With tears in my eyes I told her what if you regret this 2 months from now. She said " I will come back to you, but I know you wont take me back after I hurt you like this" And shes right I wont take her back. I told her what about her promises that she was going to grow up and change. She told me she wont change not for me. That she just wants to go home. I told her if she cared about me. She said she does and doesnt want me to get in physical pain. I responded: Thats shes already hurting me, that she doesnt care. I even made the point of telling her that I was so close to transferring to her school. So close. She told me I still could if I wanted to. I told her its not what I want. She asked what do you want then? I told her I just wanted to be with her. That I loved her. if we break up I am not going to that school. She told me that if she doesnt get into the nursing program that shes just going to go back home permantly (and that shes going to go back home permantly if she becomes a nurse) I told her. Just go home. Just leave, For I wont ever see you again. Then I told her so this is it? This is what you want? She said yea, Im sorry but I dont love you no more. She got in her car and I told her " I see what 2 and a half years meant to you" And she left. I talked to one of my good friends and he was stunned by every thing. I have all my friends on Hold right now. There all coming to my aide ASAP. I feel hurt. I understand were shes coming from, but still it hurts. I dont want to see her again, at all. She gave me back all my stuff. Alot of it is clothes, some stuff animals, movies, stuff we bought together. Even the cross-age from Prom. I have all of it. I am taking a trip down to good will and dropping all of it off. I am keeping the first bear I gave her. Just because. I am blocking her from FB as well, call it immature or what ever but I am cutting her off. She doesnt want to be with me. So I dont want a reminder of her. That goes the same for all the pictures as well. I honeslty am not sure what to do with my self. I am taking a chemistry class. But I dont think I want to go to school this summer. (As my family is going to mexico) (<-- Now I really am going to be alone) I am hoping my Boss texts me back and lets me work with High school kids this sumemr as they are doing a lot of trips and that should get my mind off things. Will suck spending 200 bucks on a college class but Idc. I also am going to get back into shape. For good this time. I guess all doors are open now. What do I do now? She was my first girlfriend, first love, and I just feel like **** right now.
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