grace2092 Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 My boyfriend broke up with me recently. We has been together for almost a year. I am 21, and he is 20. I was the first girl he ever loved, and he was the first guy I had sex with. We were very passionate and loving each other. We didnt live together, but I still took care of him, bringing him breakfast, lunch, dinner. When he was sick, I came over to his house to take care of him, and when he was at the hospital, I waited outside for hours with his mom. I helped him with his school, encouraging him to do better, I even helped him pay for his book because he didnt have enough money. I helped him find and apply for the 2 jobs that he is working now. I never asked him to take me out for shopping or for dinner when he was broke, i advised him how to use his money when he had them. When we went out, I tried to pay for half of the bills. When I didnt have a car, he drove me and I paid him back for his gas. When I had my own car, he drove with me, and I paid for gas. His took me to meet with his whole family and they all loved me. My family was ok with him too. We did have fights, and I was all started when he started to talk with his exgirlfriend, but all the fight, we made up and we learnt from our mistake. I always cared and loved him with all my heart, every sexual desire of his, I fulfilled them. When we first dated, he took care of me, but never showed being gentleman to me. When I was sick, he wouldn't come over to check on me or text me. Whenever I had to drive by myself, and I was a new driver, he wouldn't care to text to tell me to drive safe. Despite I was sick, he would still made me fulfilled his sexual desire. He never listened to me, but I always chose to listen to him. He would forgot to come pick me from work because he was busy playing video game. One time, his mom threatened to throw him out of the house, I came over to clean the house for him, and talked to his mom for him. He afraided of talking to stranger, so I always had to deal with that for him. His good side was that he was a very good friend to everyone, despite being mean to me, I knew that deep down, he was a nice person, and he had the potential to achieve great thing, I was willing to stay to be with him and help him achieve greatness. I even told him if he wanted to get his master or phd degree, I would go to work to pay for his school. ( he was smart but he was lazy, his GPA is 2.5, I am a straight A, engineer student) He didnt have the motivation to achieve great thing, but I still wanted to encourage him more. I was always there for him whenever he needed me, I even went against my parents wish to see him sometimes because I didn't want him to be upset. He even made me have sex without condom even though I was not on pill, and I was stupid enough to say yes because I didn't want him to be sad and angry. He always said I didn't have to do that, but if I didn't, then we would be upset with me. He broke up with me, saying that I was always there for him not with him, and he wasnt happy. But just on that day, in the morning, we went out together laughing and happy, and we went to work together at night, I was kidding around with jealousy because he was texting a new korean girl. Then, we we drove back, he said he wanted to break up. He cried and said he loved me, and he didnt want to go any further because we had no future, I only appeared at the right time when he needed someone ( this is a lie, because he had a crush on me, I didn't not just happen to be there). He said it hurt him too, but he rather ended now then waited any longer. He said he wouldn't be happy with me being his wife. He said before that I was a perfect wife for him. He said he just felt less attached to me, he didnt try to fix the problem. I cried a lot, I told me parent all the truth about how not nice he was to me, and that I kept the truth from them because I loved him too much and wanted to help him. I am still in shock and cried a lot. I told my friends, non of my friends liked him because they saw how he treated me, my friends said to forget about him. I still loved him a lot, despite how he treated me because I know he is a good person. I don't know should I move on or should I tried talking to me. My friends told me that he would run back to me because he couldn't find another girl who was more passionate, loving, and caring for him as I did. I really love him, but I also felt angry because of him. I know that he still loves me, he cried a lot when he said he wanted to break up with me. I have the thought of killing myself, i was dissapointed, i dedicated all my love and hope for this relationship. What should I do now?
eddyctv Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 We are all in the same boat. We've all been there. I can tell you, I felt like suicide over relationships when i was your age (I am 42). But i PROMISE you, it WILL get better - you are so young! Go out and have fun! He sounds like a jerk of a guy too. You WILL find someone who respects you and makes you laugh! 1
HopelessRomantick Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 You do the next right thing which is take care of yourself. Take a little time to mourn if that serves you but then move on and enjoy life. You sound like a wonderful person that has much to offer to a relationship. 1
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