ConfusedT Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 Good evening my fellow LS friends, I havent posted in quite a while, going in and out of my emotions & my life... My ex and I are still broken up and havent seen each other except for passing other than the last time I told you about.. I am still sad and happy, going up and down, but I am focusin on bettering myself and refocusing my energy. He actually invited me over last Saturday and I almost said YES, but then I sat there and thought to myself- what are you doing? moving forward or going backwards? & i decided that I am MOVING FORWARD so I told him no, he wasnt really happy about that at all, but I actually felt good about it.. once again i was looking through my old photos and just saw how much i digressed while i was with him. Like the smiles before him looked nothing like the smiles during the relationship and they really dont look the smiles, or lack thereof, now... i want to smile again, like 1.5 years ago... Ive been on a few dates here and there, but im not ready at all. i dont like anything about them & yes all i do is compare, but at least i put myself out there. i am still in therapy and still talkin to my life coach daily and hanging out with my friends again. I am able to go out, go shopping and not just wither away in my bed. I am so happy that I have started making steps in the right direction, even though its so hard, Im getting there and I will completely get there. Everyone keep your head up, because time and self-control will get you through this!!
Sneaky Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 You are awesome for saying no. I am thinking about having friendship at some point again with my ex and I'm not sure if I'd be able to. I think it would kill me if she started seeing someone while I was stuck at the sidelines. At the same time I'm not sure I'd be strong enough to say no should it happen. Assuming it would even happen. I'm getting way ahead of myself, haha. Anyway, still awesome job for declining.
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