mami Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 I've been with my current boyfriend for almost a year, I am 22 years old and he is 29 year old. I had sex with him after 9months into our relationship, wanted to feel each other just once and wait till we got married. The sex was ok even though it is a little bit hard for guys to please me. My boyfriend loves me so much that he has done what he would never have done with a girl in sex. And i love him so much even though we are far away from each other, I feel something is missing. Don't get me wrong I enjoy every bit of him, he is the perfect man that every girl would want to have. I love my boyfriend we have gone through so many things, and still we are going stronger than ever. Recently due to boredom, i joint a gay sight just to chat with girls and make knew friends, i got to meet a girl from the site one weekend which there after turned my head around. I kissed her in the kitchen and after few minutes i broke a glass, this to show how intense the kiss affected me. We made out day1 and day2 and after those days, i can't get her off my head. i wish to spend every moment with her and do things with her. In as much as she is now in my head. I love my boyfriend so much, we talk about our future together and I really do see him in my future, It's just that I feel something is missing in our relationship. I told him about this girl but lied we only cuddled, i asked him if we could be in this relationship and i be with girls but he was negative about it, he said he can't watch some other person touch me or me have affection for some other person. I told the girl about how i feel and she said; "I can't be anything more than just a friend to you. you have a bf and i do not want to destroy what you have. i'm sorry but it will be to hard on two of us. i think you're a great person but you're already taken" Please i need your help. Should i just stay with him and pleasure myself on the side (with just her but she won't do that with me from her txt message)? or break up ( i don't think i would be able to survive with out him) our beautiful relationship and try it with girls(even though i don't think I can have a relationship with a girl or may not because i like boys too), I think a threesome is somewhat out of the question, because my boyfriend hates the mention of it…what would you recommend? Also, at the same time a part of me is scared about regretting not exploring and experimenting more when I'm older. I don't want to wake up one day when I'm married with kids and realize I was a lesbian all along. Any advice?
Author mami Posted June 19, 2013 Author Posted June 19, 2013 Thank you dragoness, This relieved me a bit but am scared we may break up completely if i follow that part, and the future we've planned on having together would be all gone.The girl i really like, i think is trying to create a space between us because she doesn't want to be the reason for the break up between my boyfriend and i. How do i let her know she isn't the reason for ups and down in my relationship? I don't want to lose her or him either.
Keenly Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 I don't think its fair to either of them to have both. Your heart is either with her, or with your boyfriend. Both causes are just, but you must choose.
Million.to.1 Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 Soooooooooooooooooooooo many guys would LOVE to have a girlfriend that liked girls on the side.. especially if they could watch, get involved. do you and your boyfriend have conservative upbringings?
Author mami Posted June 19, 2013 Author Posted June 19, 2013 Yeah i have heard this alot "many guys would LOVE to have a girlfriend that liked girls on the side.. especially if they could watch, get involved." Yes i and my boyfriend's upbringing was or is conservative but i am liberal atm LGBT isn't acceptable in our country but anyway that i think doesn't have anything to do with this, does it?
kamani Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 I feel you are in denial that you are lesbian and want to convince yourself that you are not. It seems you are more into this girl than your bf. Do a favour to your bf by being honest with him. Break up with him and explore the lesbian side. 1
therhythm Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 Sorry but this is cheating... with another men or with a woman... what you do is plain cheating... You need to make up your mind... I don't think there is anything wrong with experimenting and enjoying everything that turns you on as long as you are not in an exclusive relationship. I find dishonest people a great turn off... it usually comes together with a self centrist personality 1
Author mami Posted June 19, 2013 Author Posted June 19, 2013 Thank you kamani and therhythm for your responds. i really do appreciate it.
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