omit Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 (edited) I was with some one for two year, and some times I wasn't there when I should of been. We broke up about 3 months ago, The guilt of realising this is all I think about. The relationship I feel from her point of view was moving in one direction and I was not ready for that kind of commitment. I never said because I didn't want her to go or think I didn't want to be with her. My story is on here some were for all its worth more of the small stuff. So I went with it and found it frustrating, I have told very few people the exact scenario we were out for dinner its was our usual dinner out not much chat just happy in each others company. I could feel my frustration building and I tried to arrange something else for us to do with others to try and cut the tension. Ended up we fell out on way home. I tried to explain how I was feeling it didn't come across well at all, I said I was not sure I wanted to move in and that I was not sure the relationship was exactly what I wanted. I left her home we didn't speak for two days, I went and talked to her explained I was sorry for how I treated her. I didn't know how I felt about any thing and that I don't want things to end. She said I couldn't leave till I decided what I wanted. I have struggled to be happy with my lot in life for a while my job and things are not what I expected spent a lot of time time unemployed. We struggled with this and it was topic of much discussion and odd falling out. we worked through the hard times but things got me down and left me feeling bewildered empty. I know this seems disjointed but preoccupied with this stuff I lost sight of my relationship. So going back to point were I was not allowed to leave till I decided, I couldn't decide found it hard to talk further. So I took my things and went. So I feel guilty for all of it not treating her right, putting her through this rubbish and not staying and trying to fight to keep it going. I have told her I am sorry. I just cant seem to move on. I tried to sort things out and she told me it was too late. Edited June 18, 2013 by omit
theonlyjuan Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 Learn from it and improve on yourself. You can't change the past but work on it so you don't hurt someone else 1
Hopeinme Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 Everyone makes mistakes. Its normal to err, we learn from it and we move on. Dont be too hard on yourself x
Author omit Posted June 18, 2013 Author Posted June 18, 2013 thanks for posting I have to let go. I'm sure I'm the only one keeping this going. I don't think she would ever want to try again. I look at things so much differently. I might have realised what's important too late. I have a letter but haven't sent it I'm not sure what difference it would make to the whole thing
Hopeinme Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 Its never too late. Better late than never! Help yourself and things will get better. X
Sav Posted June 19, 2013 Posted June 19, 2013 If you have to be wonderful every single second in a relationship, that's not a relationship. You must be able to be yourself, you must be able to screw up, now that's a relationship. Don't think too much in this. A relationship is where people work together to overcome problems. Dont be too harsh on yourself 1
Author omit Posted June 19, 2013 Author Posted June 19, 2013 I see what you are saying sav, I do want to try again. I cant bring my self to send the letter. inside I know she has had enough its just accepting that fact now. Chances seem to be something that was given to us when we were kids for taking a cookie without asking, I only wish this was the same
Author omit Posted June 21, 2013 Author Posted June 21, 2013 I'm not sure what to do, should I send her a letter? I told her weeks ago I didn't want to give up and she said it was too late.
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