Noma Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 We have been in contact. We work together. And have hung out a few times. He had a rebound, they split. Now hang out some... I'm not really sure. Doesn't matter anymore. I need to get this out. I still love him. I care about him. And I miss him so much. He was texting me this am (we slept together 2 weeks ago) and he asked me to come over. I told I'm no sex. That I just needed a "cozy buddy" (what we used to call it when we wanted to cuddle), told him my back hurt from stress. He still asked me to come over, said he was offering if I wanted to. I declined, said I just didn't feel like getting out of bed. But thanked him. He kept asking what was wrong, what the stress was etc. asked me to talk to him. Wants to know if there is anything he can do to help... I just told him I wish I had more friends to do things with during the day, and normal life stresses. Which is true. But I couldn't tell him that I love him. I think he is amazing, a beautiful person, smart, funny, just wonderful. I miss my best friend, the one I laugh with, can tell anything and everything, and am my most comfortable with. He had the day off yesterday, when he called at the end of the night I asked if he had fun, to which he replied, "not really, just crabby most of the day." He sounded sad. I want to be there for him. But can't. And this morning, it was so nice of him to offer just to hold me. But I know I would just cry. I really miss him today. It doesn't hurt like it used to. I have seen acceptance, that hurt but was necessary. 1
Author Noma Posted June 18, 2013 Author Posted June 18, 2013 I know I'll find someone else at some point in my life when I am ready. In this case I'm not convinced it would be better, but different. We had a pretty good relationship and truly loved and cared for each other. Just lots of miscommunication, and stress from also working together. Just really sad today.
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