Oldcatskinner Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 (edited) Good morning folks, I'd like to share with you the significance of yesterday. It was my first TRUE LOVE's birthday. It is the first time since I've known that it was her birthday that I did not contact her. It wasn't hard for me, as I had accepted that the relationship was over four weeks and one day ago. What it was was sad. What I told myself- The best present I could give her is her space and distance from me. What went through my mind: If I don't contact her, will she think I hate her? Will she think I do not care about her and the relationship was in vain? Will she think that our time together was trivial and meaningless to me? These thoughts had coursed through my mind; notice the trend here. It was what I thought SHE MIGHT think. One or all of the above may indeed be true, but I do not know, and should and will not dwell upon wondering about. What I DO KNOW: We are not together; her silence speaks volumes, and I have business to take care of myself. What I do know, and will admit to: If I had been in contact with her, and she didn't respond, I would have been hurt. This is due to neglect. If she did respond coldly, I would have been hurt, and ticked due to a bruised ego. If she responded warmly, I would have been excited, and have hopes that we would be "Together Again, Again" as Buck Owens sings. Today is day 53 NC for her, and day 29 NC for me (I had to do some counting and math here, so I believe I am making progress!) The key- be honest with yourself. Don't take the high road with yourself when it comes to being in contact with your ex. If you realize you still have romantic feelings towards her, be careful of contacting or accepting contact with her, because your train will be derailed. This is what I had to come to terms with. Men with temporary broken spirits out there-heed this advice. On a tangent, I will address this issue. Be a man. If there is an emergency that occurs where she is in trouble and you can do something to prevent or alleviate her distress, NC is suspended. This is part of the responsibility you accept when you are gifted with the XY Chromosome. You have the same responsibility to not hold this over her head as an excuse to get back with her. You take care of your business because it is good and right for you to do. You watch out for the good of humanity because it is good and right to do. You brighten the world one small flicker at a time, and this can mean all the difference to a soul. It has made a difference in my life. Oh, and as to my handle, it has nothing to do with animal cruelty. Google "cat skinner". Best wishes everyone, Oldcatskinner Edited June 18, 2013 by Oldcatskinner 2
Hopeinme Posted June 18, 2013 Posted June 18, 2013 Thank you for this! My ex's birthday is tmr, and you gave me exacrly what I needed. X
Recommended Posts