mixed feelings

[Chrisal23]

Hello everyone,

 

Today is day 6 of NC and to be honest it sucks as many of you know. One one part I feel good that I didn't break NC like before after 1-3 days. I honestly felt pathetic especially when she told me I was a stalker and got annoying. The worst things of all is that my ex went from my everything to my worst enemy in a snap idk how this will change in the future and what goes through her mind to treat me like s*** all of a sudden. I feel betrayed by my best friend also and I honestly have no one except for my family at this point. It's crazy how I had friends , my gf and life was great! Sometimes it feels like a bad dream and I wonder if I'm also a bad friend on top of failing in the relationship . Each day I'm trying my best to accept that there isn't a future with my ex. I have to start from scratch with no gf and no friends. I realize that my biggest mistake was depending on people to be happy. Just thought I'd vent here since I'm struggling.

Edited June 17, 2013 by Chrisal23

[theonlyjuan]

Use the anger. In a way it helps.

 

I have no reason to be angry at my ex, but I sometimes wish I could. I do being angry very well and it helps me vent and get over problems.

 

Concentrate on yourself. Try new things, learn something new.

 

What's done is done and you can't change it. Try to accept it, you will soon.

[Chrisal23]

It feels almost impossible to do but I'm doing my best to accept it. But you're right I will move forward and use my feelings that I now have for her. I might of made a fool of myself but at this point she's lost a lot of my respect.

[mtnbiker3000]

It feels almost impossible to do but I'm doing my best to accept it. But you're right I will move forward and use my feelings that I now have for her. I might of made a fool of myself but at this point she's lost a lot of my respect.

 

Stick to NC diligently and things will change!! How long will it take? Depends!! But they will change!!!