5 months out. Picked up bad habits from ex, and its bothering me

[westjames111]

I have been single now since January. My ex cheated on me and left for a guy I had recently become "friends" with and introduced her to. I dealt with the situation pretty poorly in the beginning doing the whole depressed thing and self pity. Now 5 months later I feel a lot better. The depression has lifted and it has more or so just become a low bitterness. I have had absolutely no contact with her in months, and her new relationship is still going strong as far as I know.

 

I dated her for 2 years and she was extremely needy/clingy, and she has never really been single. She jumped from relationship to relationship before me with anyone who would have her simply so she didn't have to be single. That's pretty much why she left me because someone else gave her more attention. When we dated she couldn't even sit at home alone for an hour before she would start complaining about being alone/bored. I never understood the behavior and it was always strange/annoying to me.

 

Anyway the problem is this... before my relationship with her "my first relationship", I was the most independent person ever. I had no problem with sitting alone, being single, or not going on dates. Now I feel like I have picked up this bad habit of being needy after spending so much time with her. I cant sit at home alone now or entertain myself without feeling depressed or alone. I always want to do something or hang out with friends because I try to escape these feelings. Also if I spend too much time alone I start to think back to our relationship and replay scenarios in my head. As long as I keep busy this doesn't happen, its just when I am not busy and sitting alone.

 

Is this something I picked up from her, or is this just something that comes along with the breakup? I thought I was out of the recovery process by now but apparently not.