bluecrabroll Posted June 16, 2013 Posted June 16, 2013 It is amazing how fast 4 months go by. I was a wreck in February and have slowly come to rise from the darkness. I'm slowly finding myself again and taking care of myself. Back to being a positive person and maintaining my integrity. I realize what a huge impact I have on the lives of others. I got hired by the job of my dreams and will be relocating home in a month.... closer to her, something that has been OUR goal since we dated for the last 3 years. Was suppose to move in and live together. Now I'm achieving the dreams on my own. I still think about her albeit not as often and almost approaching a sense of neutrality. The words and actions of our breakup still haunt me at times and the future reminds me of her all the time. Our mutual friends are all getting married and I'm back to starting a whole new life. The new Hunger Games where I got her hooked onto it. The graduation and start of our new careers in which we've been apart of the journey this whole time. Our medical boards in which we've spent the last 2 years studying together through Skype, I've mentored and helped her. I"m nostalgic and just wanted to get this off my chest. Been faking it to make it through with my friends and family. It's sad I'm moving through the future alone without her while she may be moving through it with someone new. I'm moving home and leaving what I've established here to another new beginning in an old place where no one is left. Half my friends think I'm subconsciously moving home with hopes to get her back, but I think I am neutral about it and I doubt I would try anymore. The girl I knew and loved is long gone. I wish she will appreciate the change I made in her life one day. I had a fortune read 5 years ago, where I will go far far away for three years, meet a girl with baggage, be miserable and when I return home I will find happiness. That time is coming really soon. I just can't wait for the day where I will fall madly in love with another woman and hopefully I will see that things happened for the best. For now I'm just moving through time and trying to preserve my dignity without bitterness. Going to purchase a home soon, pass my boards and devote myself to work and enjoying as much of life as possible and hopefully become an even better person for someone that will appreciate me for who I am. Thanks for listening. Keep moving forward. 2
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