McDonald Posted June 14, 2013 Posted June 14, 2013 I made it. I really didnt think I would make it to the end of the school year without going completely crazy. At times, I would do crazy things becuase of the BU, but I have been able to gather my composure during these last few months and finish the school year. Its been a tough ride since the breakup.... I thought i wouldnt make it through my classes because she would always push me, help me study, stay up late with me while i worked on essays etc. But I was able to do it. I did it bymyself, without her help. And I have met so many new people, so many friends, new girls etc. I go back home tomorrow. Its a bitter sweet time. Since the breakup, I just wanted to go home and get away from this place because I would always run into my ex and her new BF. By now, as I am about to leave, I dont want too. Ive finally been able to open up to others, to leave this shell of mine that I have always had, that was masked by the RS, rediscovered during the breakup, and now Im finally leaving that shell. But, I have to go home right when Im ready to get out there and meet new girls. So its very bittersweet. I wont lie, Going home will also kill this false hope I had of "I hope she texts me". I guess deep down theres been apart of me wanting to hear from her. But going home, without hearing from her... tell that false hope that it is really done. Though it has been for months. What I am trying to say LS is, thank you. Thank you for helping me through the toughest school year, and in general, the toughest time of my life. I would have never thought I could let a person do this to me. I know better next time. I have learned so much and since I am young, have a lot more learning to do. I still jump when I see her, turn the other way, but im not missing her... I think that is a big thing. Now, 3 months away from my school, it might finally give me the chance to completely let go, Untill next year. 3
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