Day 60 NC, sort of.

[pa_H0k]

So today marks day 60 of NC, (aside from some photo tags of her on FaceBook these past couple weeks), and sad to say, I'm still in a whirlwind of emotions.

 

I've been following NC seriously (I just dropped off the face of the earth, blocked her on FB, deleted her #, and didn't respond to her last few texts). I've been working out, picking up the guitar (hobby), reading books, and going out almost every day whiles its summer.

 

The other day, a group of mutual friends (both male and female) of the ex and I went to the bar, and the topic of HER came up out of no where. Although, They basically had a little bashing session on my ex. They told me some surprising news, all that made me feel.. sad and happy at the same time. Apparently, they all believe that shes just a bitch/whore (I don't know if they're just saying it to make me feel better), but they've told me since our break up 5 months ago, shes already dating a 3rd guy.

 

It made me think, ALOT. Is she just whoring it up.. or is she rebounding left and right, even though she's the one who left me. I don't know.. how to feel. It makes me sort of happy, but also really hurt and sad thats shes doing this. Someone who I was so close with, now just a distant stranger doing ..this.

 

I do miss her alot. What do I do from here.. I feel like I've gotten no where since day 1. I mean I don't feel as crazy hurt as I did a couple months back, But still hurt now. Whaaaaat do I do.. Why am I still trying to put meaning into her actions.. -_________-. fml.

 

/vent end

[mtnbiker3000]

I can relate. I am now on day 89. Easier? No! Different emotions on a regular basis? Yes! And, like you, my own thoughts and questions are my worst enemy. I just keep ticking off the days in hopes that soon, I will just not care any longer. *Sigh* Not there yet…

[pa_H0k]

Good luck to us both.. I do hope NC works.. meanwhile, this is really starting to drive me crazy. Why is it so god damn hard to let go/not give a ****. What the hell is wrong with me..