skystartsfalling Posted June 10, 2013 Posted June 10, 2013 well, after 3 years, about 2 weeks ago or so my gf broke up with me. we'd talked of marriage, called each other soulmates. i felt like we had a strong bond. we are both extremely emotional people. there had been ups and downs but usually only fought over little things. some things i will admit i would over react to, but other times i felt like i remained extremely level headed in tense situations. anniversary was great, went to a carnival, movies, had a great day and night. then one night suddenly in the midst of an hour or so of quiet (something increasingly common over last few months) i asked what was wrong. she was guarded and didn't want to talk but i eventually got it out of her. said she felt unsure about the future, wasn't sure if she still felt strongly for me. said it had been going on for a while and she didn't want to hurt my feelings. she said maybe we should take a break but over time it became clear she didn't want to think about us romantically anymore. i know it's weird, but i still live with her and she says she wants me to stay and just be friends. i work in the area and would have to move out of state to be close to family or friends. very quickly she began talking to a guy online who lives in another part of the country, even already made plans to fly out and meet him. i know they chatted before this too, but i think she only began entertaining this idea of really doing anything with him after we broke up. i don't know what to do. i do honestly believe when feelings hit a person can sometimes have little control over the heart, and i do honestly want her to be happy. even if it seems bizarre, i consider her my best friend too and know she is not deliberately doing this to hurt my feelings and is genuinely concerned over it throwing me into a depression. she says she is just changing. it just seems so extreme to me. and the thing is even though she no longer feels for me romantically i know she enjoys having me around, as long as i'm in a good mood. but of course the circumstances complicate that, haha. i know she wants me to be able to move on too, and although i am hurt, i don't really feel betrayed. i know she agonized over coming to this decision. i would love to be able to move on emotionally and stay here in a platonic situation and just be there for each other in that way, but it's hard because i still have feelings for her and can't help like feeling i somehow did this, and pushed her away. family and friends tell me to leave, but i am not so sure i want to, even though i know that may sound ridiculous. can this possibly work like this? i'm not sure what i expect, just venting. thanks. also she has insomnia so linking up our schedules has always been tough but never something i wasn't happy to deal with.
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