aarchuleta91 Posted June 10, 2013 Posted June 10, 2013 Okay, very long story here and maybe just because I need to vent? we will see. Me and my ex broke up a month ago after a very hard 4 years of being together. when we met (2008) she was a teen mother and my parents where very serious about me not being with her. we dated for a month before my parents found out and got told I needed to end it or I will transfer schools. so I broke it off with her and then regret it so we dated secretly for a year till I was 18, I was still scared to say anything for fear of what my parents would think. I finally gained the courage and decided to just go with it and tell my parents. they where harsh at first then warmed up to me. we dated till May 2010, we broke up do to a miscarriage she had and she ended up dating someone else till august, we took nearly a month till I finally said I can forgive her decision to date someone else. we got pregnant and celebrated because we felt blessed after the miscarriage early that year. we moved in and got hit in the face hard with reality, bills came in car problems then financial problems. I got comfortable and the love began to show less and less, I started to fall into a depression and bought things to fill the void. causing financial crisis. this caused fights and hatred. then she had a rough pregnancy and fear she would miscarriage again scared the living hell out of me and made me go in panic over protective mode and become a jerk because I picked up longer hours at work to make more money so I was grumpy and had constant fights with my coworker. I would take it out on her and feel horrible with my actions and then get more angry with her. this went on till our beautiful daughter was born, after that it was like we fell in love again everything was passionate and full of life after she was born, then problems arose again and the fights came back and I was angry with her for no reason over the littlest thing. she fell far off my important scale. this continued till January 2012 when she finally moved back in with her parents not very sure of us, life got harder for me not being able to cope on living without her and she said it was my fault and to deal with the choices. this went on till December and we fell back into how everything feels in the beginning of a relationship. then fights came about because I moved back in with my parents to really get a grip on my financial problems and emotional instability. I finally got everything together and I always felt like I would fail her in a way because it wasn't happening fast enough. so we broke up a month ago. now here we are I only talk or see her when she drops off our daughter, but the last 2 times she seems to prolong our visits and doesn't seem in a rush to leave, and the hugs are full and long. not a simple hi quick hug bye. no its like it feels like she never wants to leave and continues to talk and bring up anything to stay longer. I would love her to be mine again, but is she feeling the same way? and if so, what is my best plan of action?
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