FlockaFlex Posted June 10, 2013 Posted June 10, 2013 Hey LS community, I just wanted to share my story with you guys cause I feel the need to put this out there. Well, to begin I was dating a girl for almost 11 months and about 6 months in I tore my ACL for the 2nd time and became extremely depressed. I think it pushed her away. She said I changed after I tore it and I think that's why we ended up breaking up. She broke up with me four months after the surgery. We remained friends with benefits for about a month. Then one morning while she was at work and I was in her bed my sister called me in tears. She told me she found texts on our dads phone that he was cheating on my mom. I was devastated. I was still depressed from the surgery and this just added to it. I cried in her arms later that day because I knew I had to go home and tell my mom the next weekend. Despite this happening she wanted to go clubbing that night. I really didn't want to but I did anyways, which was the worst idea ever. I wish I would've manned the **** up and said no. We went clubbing I got drunk and I was just not in the mood for the clubs so I sat in the back while she danced all night. At the end of the night I saw her get a guys phone number. She told me it was just a friend from class. The week following this was hell. I started cutting myself. As each day passed I became more of a wreck knowing I had to tell my mom soon. Finally I went home that Friday to tell her. My ex was at a beach house with friends but she said she'd answer if I needed her. I told my mom, which was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I watched her and my sister cry for over an hour. I had to maintain myself in front of them even though I was going through hell on the inside. The next day I couldn't eat. My mom started crying and I couldn't hold it in any longer. I started to tear up. I knew I had to leave so i called my ex and asked if I could come over for the night. As soon as I got out of my house I broke down. I got to her house and she comforted me. She told me to get my **** together. She saw what a mess I was. The next morning while she was cooking I saw a text from the guy from the club on her phone. Found out she's been talking to him and that she spent the night in his bed the night before I had to tell my mom. I lost it. We got into a huge argument. I left back to my town worse than I was before. Eventually she started ignoring me even tho I was a complete ****ing mess and she knew what I was going through. I had a feeling its because she was with the guy. Finally I wanted my things back and my closure so I drove to her house. We had a long talk and I found out shes falling for this guy within 3 weeks of breaking up. That she was ****ing him the entire time I was going through hell. It tore me apart. It was the lowest I've ever been in my whole life. Everything happening all close together completely destroyed me. I was so weak. I was a wreck. She eventually ended up making the relationship facebook official. Then one day something happened. Its like something inside me snapped. I started rebuilding myself. I started working out everyday. I joined a crossfit gym. I started a paleo diet. I cut my hair. I redid my wardrobe. I started dressing better. Made myself look cleaner. Now I am a totally different person. Every day I grow stronger. My confidence is growing. I have become so much stronger of a person. I feel like I needed to go through all this because now I am so much stronger as a person. I used to be so weak. Now I look at myself in the mirror and see a completely different person and I love it. I have so much motivation now. I feel like girls are noticing me a lot more. I finally kissed another girl at a party the other night (she was all over me, grabbing my ass). I think getting my heartbroken and going through everything else is what is making me who I am today, a much stronger, healthier, more confident person. I now have goals that I am determined to achieve and nothing will stop me. My ex will see me one day and be shocked by how much I have grown and I hope she will want me in which case I would shut her down. Don't get me wrong, I'm not doing this for my ex, I'm doing it for me and it feels great. It really is true what they say. You have to be broken down to rebuild yourself as a stronger person and I am living proof of that. I hope this helps and motivates you all who are heartbroken. In the end you will be a much stronger person. You just have to learn to love yourself. Best of luck
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