Gingerxr2 Posted June 8, 2013 Posted June 8, 2013 Hi guys, well it's been almost 9 months since b/u and I haven't been on here for a while . My path has been pretty tuff to be honest and I go through some pretty emotional ups and down mainly downs !!! , I've been on some dates and they kind if fizzle out , and then I go back to thinking how perfect my ex was . Even though really I know she wasn't ? , why do we go through this ,? I haven't seen or spoken to her in almost 8 months , I drive miles out of my way so I don't see her , but at the back of my mind she's always there ! It's driving me mental !! , every time i see the make of car she has I panic and check its not her just to check she hasn't met someone else !! , I'm struggling tort go and nothing I do helps ? What can I do ???
SimonSerenade Posted June 8, 2013 Posted June 8, 2013 I wish I knew, took me maybe up to a year before I could finally move on from my ex and when I say maybe I'm not sure, took me a year and a half to be in a relationship again, I'm glad I took that plunge though as once I got used to being in a relationship with someone else the image of her disappeared from my mind completely, I didn't have to worry about seeing my ex unexpectedly, we had a kid together so anytime I did see her it was because I was picking him up for the weekend and dropping him off afterwards, still painful but not as heart wrenching as seeing her out and about from time to time, I get you on the dating someone else thing though, I remember seeing a guy walking back from my exs house just as I was dropping my kid off, when I got there she was in next to nothing and it turned out he was a guy she was seeing. Right now recent ex of 1.5 years just dumped my ass, no real explanation for it, just started being weird and negative out of nowhere, it was upsetting to watch it happen and in truth I probably saw it coming but didn't want to admit it to myself, right now I'm in your position, I'm scared to death of bumping in to her, the last time I saw her was when I went in to her work figuring she wasn't in that day, she saw me, gave me the most evil look I've ever been given, I had to go and look at some plasma tvs just to get myself together again and stop myself from crying, my heart fell through my *******, I haven't been in since which is bad because I really needed to do some shopping today. I'm struggling to get that perfect "she's the one" bs out of my head, it's hard because when they leave you they leave you feeling worthless and you view them as superior to you because they made you feel like you weren't good enough for them, I know my ex isn't perfect, just the other night I called her when I was in a really emotional place and she just treated me like garbage like I was the one who did this to the relationship, we were supposed to see each other yesterday for a chat and she was a no show, the scary thing for me now is, she owes me some money and she said she's going to give it back at some point so now I'm stuck wondering when she's going to wind up at my door, if it was next to nothing I'd just let it to but it was £200, gave it her just a week before she left me, so it goes without saying I'm going to want it back and treat myself to a nice new tv for the bedroom, makes sense since I'll probably spend more time in there crying and sleeping now until she's out of my system. I think it's something only time can take away and you shouldn't worry about it too much, as hard as it is.
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