Hurting really bad

[brokenglass1]

My ex-girlfriend left me two weeks ago after 3.5 years. We're in college and we were living together, had planned to get married, have kids, everything. We got into this stupid and pointless argument and we ended up not talking for 7 days. On the 8th day, she told me she didn't want to be in a relationship anymore and she left, and my whole world just caved in on me. I never saw this coming, i never thought it would come. I didn't beg or plead, or ask for a second chance. I simply swallowed my pride and left. Immediately after the break-up, she started going out with her friends every night. She even hooked up with someone just a couple of days after breaking up with me, and my friend said he has never seen her this flirty with guys. My other friend showed my how many guys she's requested to follow on instagram in just 4 days, it was over 100 guys. She's adding all of these guys on facebook that used to think she was cute, and she even added a guy who I always knew was in love with her. This has seriously been the worst two weeks of my life.

To add the cherry on top, she still wants to be friends!!! Can you believe that? She broke up with me and seems to have no regrets whatsoever, she seems as happy as she can be. Meanwhile I'm sitting here killing myself all day. I haven't contacted her at all since the break-up. She texted me yesterday and I texted a three word response back, and then I didn't text her back at all. She keeps sending me picture messages of herself and her friends on this picture-messaging app, but I don't reply.

I've had good days, and I've had bad days, but today is definitely one of the bad days. Especially since I know she added that guy who is in love with her, and I could tell she thought he was cute. He's not a bad looking guy at all. my mind is going in endless circles with them two. I know I should delete her on facebook, but I told her that I'd still be friends with her once she broke up with me. God, facebook can really make break-ups ten times as worse, you should see how single she is presenting herself. I don't know what I did to go wrong other than that stupid small argument we didn't talk for 7 days for. The whole thing with us not talking for 7 days was we were seeing who would cave in first, that's how low our relationship had sunk. I can't eat, can't sleep, can't distract myself, I can't do anything but think about her and regret how I handled that argument. it's driving me nuts, i seriously need your help.