millie91 Posted June 3, 2013 Posted June 3, 2013 My boyfriend of two and a half years ended our relationship 3 days ago. we have broken up in the past over stupid fights because he was always 'done' after an argument, and we would end up getting back together a few days later. my story is very complicated, but im not allowed to date for religious and cultural reasons, so none of my family knew about my relationship, only my friends did, and he comes from a similar background so the same goes for him. we were friends since a young age and started to develop stronger feelings for each other in the last 4 years, before we made it official and he moved here to be with me. we had agreed to tell our families about our relationship once we both graduated from college which would have been this year for me and another 2 years for him. since i wasnt supposed to be dating before getting married, when i got pregnant at the start of this year there was no other option for us but to terminate the pregnancy, even though for me that was not what i wanted, but i wanted to be with him and he promised me in the future when we're married we can start our family and now is just not the right time. even since all this, he has not been the same and constantly fought with me and looking back now it just seems so clear he wanted to be out of this relationship for 5 months now. he broke up with me after every fight then somehow we would fix it and this has been a routine for months now. he dis-enrolled from the university here and told me is going to move back to the UK this summer and that will be the end of us. he promised me when that time comes we will end it on good terms and be friends, because he put me through alot and would want to be there for me in the future. all these promises he made regularly and i always told him to not promise me things he wouldnt be able to do or keep his word. lately he was a changed person, and i see that he didnt want to be in a relationship, but he just ended it the other day and made sure i wasnt able to contact him anymore. after everything, all the promises and what he's put me through, he just gave up and left. im dealing with all this alone, my family still dont know, and if they ever found out i cant imagine what would happen to me, this stuff wont be okay with them, they are really old-school and also very religious. i feel so used and broken, i dont know whether to be angry with him or hate him, because i still love him, and two and a half years later am i wrong to believe he at least owes me an explanation as to why he is ending it just like this and dumping me to pick up the pieces on my own? does he not owe it to me to talk to me and keep his promises? it feels like the world is ending right now, ive read alot of the posts in this forum and similar stories of heartbreak, but i have no motivation to graduate from college this year or to do anything with my life, but i know i have to. i just feel to hurt and broken to do anything right now. the memories are killing me and i cant believe he ended it just like that. i would really appreciate some kind of advice or words of wisdom.
Author millie91 Posted June 3, 2013 Author Posted June 3, 2013 Thank you for the kind reply. My emotions are up and down right now, i feel like theres hope one minute and the next im back to where i started and crying. Just want my life back.
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