Is "taking time apart" just a test to see if I can handle this relationship?

[Imperfectionsbeauty]

Hello Everyone,

 

I'm going to explain this the best I can.

 

So a little over a week ago me and my boyfriend (of 2.5 years) got into a bad fight over text. I had "picked" the fight because I had been stressing from work, finals, I came down with a cold and of course PMS chose to visit (all in one week). I felt he was not as concerned and didn't ask how I was feeling but in all reality he was just busy at work maybe even with his own stress? He works in construction during evening hours so it makes it difficult for him to use his phone for safety reasons.

I said some mean things like "I hate you" "You don't care about me" "I'm going to go out tonight and BE SINGLE". I know I'm terrible:( I was soooo stressed and I felt like saying those things would be the only way to get his attention. Well he just kept saying he loves me and he just wants me to be happy. I took some nyquil and fell asleep.

 

The following morning I told him I'm sorry and I regret what I said. I jokingly texted "make up sex?" he replied.."WOW I can't say no to that but babe we need to talk"

 

 

He didn't reply to any of my texts/calls for one whole week. I pleaded to meet in person and talk. Until finally this past Friday (5 days later) he replied and said "i'm not leaving you. I'm just thinking things over because I feel you may not be ready".

I replied and said "I am ready I was just stressed I promise things will change just tell me we can work things out or tell me its over"

 

He said, " Ok well we will work on this but I still think we need some time apart. I'm working till midnight today. My schedule is 1-midnight for another two weeks. So after that we can meet."

 

It has been two days and he hasn't texted me. I did send him one text each day saying "I love you. Have a great day"

 

Going from texting every day for a few years to not is so hard and heartbreaking!

 

I know it would be best to give him space but I feel like I am the reason for this all. I am sending the texts each day to show him I am being supportive of his job but giving him space too. Should I continue to text him?? I'm scared if I don't contact him then he will think the space he is giving me is what I always wanted (due to the things I stupidly said the night of the fight). But, I want him to know I care and also want to respect his wishes.