jqbnchick Posted October 6, 2004 Posted October 6, 2004 TO START OFF MY EX LEFT ME 8 MONTH AGO WE WAS TOGETHER FOR 3 YR AND WE HAD OUR OWN PLACE ONE DAY HE DECIDED HE JUST WANTED A BRAKE. HE WOULD ALWAYS CHEAT LIE BEAT ME HE NEVER PAID ATTENTION TO ME AND EVERYTHING I EVER SAID WAS STUPPID HE WOULD COUNT THE MINUTES IT TOOK E TO GET HOME FROM WORK AND I WAS NEVER ALLOWED TO GO ANYWHERE REGARDLESS OF THIS I LOVE HIM. IT WAS EXTREMELY HARD FOR ME WHEN HE LEFT BECAUSE EVEN WITH ALL HIS IMPERFECTION WHEN WE WAS OK WE WERE IN SEPERATABLE I COULDN'T HANDLE IT AND I WENT ON A SELF DISRTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR I WOULD PARTY ALL THE TIME GET MESSED UP ALL THE TIME I QUIT SCHOOL. ABOUT 4 MONTH AGO I FOUND OUT THE REAL REASON WHY HE LEFT IT WAS SOME GIRL HE HAD MET AT A CLUB HE CHOOSE TO BE WITH HER AND MOVED 2 HR AWAY TO START A NEW LIFE AFTER HE LEFT ME I NEVER SAID TO HIM HOW I FELT HE NEW I WAS ALWAYS MESSED UP AND WOULD ALWAYS GIVE ME GOOD ADVICE<< WHEN HE LEFT ME 8 MONTH AGO WE KEPT SEEING EACH OTHER UPTO 4 MONTH AFTER THAT WE TRIED WORKING THINGS OUT HE WOULD ALWAYS ASK ME FOR TIME ABOUT TWO MONTH AGO I STARTED DATING AGAIN I STOPPED MESSING UP AND WENT BACK TO SCHOOL THE FIRST GUY I MET ENDED UP RAPPING ME N MY X- B-FRIEND LET THIS HAPPENED IVE BEEN IN A WHOLE EVER SINCE I DONT TALK IM MOTIONLESS AND FOR THE FIRST TIME N MONTH I DECIDED TO TELL MY EX HOW I FELT ABOUT US I GUESS HIS GIRL SAW THE TEXT CUZ SHE SENT ME A TEXT TELLING ME TO LEAVE HIM ALONE HE TOLD ME HE LIKED TALKING TO ME BUT TO KEEP IT ON THE D-L WHAT CAN I DO LOVE HIM SO MUCH I MISS HIM SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE A LOST SOUL WILL THIS PAIN EVER GO AWAY SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I DONT WANNA WAKE UP OR GET UP MY LIFE JUST KEEPS GETTING WORST N WORST BY THE MOMENT HELP ME
Merin Posted October 6, 2004 Posted October 6, 2004 Okay.. Well to begin with, what is it you love so much about this guy? You've said he cheated on you, lies to you, calls you names, has beat you up, ignores you.. This isn't "imperfection" this is called "abusive" Secondly, you've said that because of what's happened you went on a destructive path.. while I can understand that you've been through a lot, there also comes a time that you have to do better and want better for yourself in spite of what's happened in your life. Rape.. this is a very serious allegation.. I would advise you to seek counseling.
iceprincess Posted October 6, 2004 Posted October 6, 2004 Originally posted by jqbnchick TO START OFF MY EX LEFT ME 8 MONTH AGO WE WAS TOGETHER FOR 3 YR AND WE HAD OUR OWN PLACE ONE DAY HE DECIDED HE JUST WANTED A BRAKE. HE WOULD ALWAYS CHEAT LIE BEAT ME HE NEVER PAID ATTENTION TO ME AND EVERYTHING I EVER SAID WAS STUPPID HE WOULD COUNT THE MINUTES IT TOOK E TO GET HOME FROM WORK AND I WAS NEVER ALLOWED TO GO ANYWHERE REGARDLESS OF THIS I LOVE HIM. IT WAS EXTREMELY HARD FOR ME WHEN HE LEFT BECAUSE EVEN WITH ALL HIS IMPERFECTION WHEN WE WAS OK WE WERE IN SEPERATABLE I COULDN'T HANDLE IT AND I WENT ON A SELF DISRTRUCTIVE BEHAVIOR I WOULD PARTY ALL THE TIME GET MESSED UP ALL THE TIME I QUIT SCHOOL. ABOUT 4 MONTH AGO I FOUND OUT THE REAL REASON WHY HE LEFT IT WAS SOME GIRL HE HAD MET AT A CLUB HE CHOOSE TO BE WITH HER AND MOVED 2 HR AWAY TO START A NEW LIFE AFTER HE LEFT ME I NEVER SAID TO HIM HOW I FELT HE NEW I WAS ALWAYS MESSED UP AND WOULD ALWAYS GIVE ME GOOD ADVICE<< WHEN HE LEFT ME 8 MONTH AGO WE KEPT SEEING EACH OTHER UPTO 4 MONTH AFTER THAT WE TRIED WORKING THINGS OUT HE WOULD ALWAYS ASK ME FOR TIME ABOUT TWO MONTH AGO I STARTED DATING AGAIN I STOPPED MESSING UP AND WENT BACK TO SCHOOL THE FIRST GUY I MET ENDED UP RAPPING ME N MY X- B-FRIEND LET THIS HAPPENED IVE BEEN IN A WHOLE EVER SINCE I DONT TALK IM MOTIONLESS AND FOR THE FIRST TIME N MONTH I DECIDED TO TELL MY EX HOW I FELT ABOUT US I GUESS HIS GIRL SAW THE TEXT CUZ SHE SENT ME A TEXT TELLING ME TO LEAVE HIM ALONE HE TOLD ME HE LIKED TALKING TO ME BUT TO KEEP IT ON THE D-L WHAT CAN I DO LOVE HIM SO MUCH I MISS HIM SO MUCH I FEEL LIKE A LOST SOUL WILL THIS PAIN EVER GO AWAY SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I DONT WANNA WAKE UP OR GET UP MY LIFE JUST KEEPS GETTING WORST N WORST BY THE MOMENT HELP ME I feel that you are at your breaking point and if you HAVE to do something about it. You can't just sit and contemplate about how you guys will get back together or how much you love him or "what if's". You need to get up and do something! Seek a help group, reach out, you don't have to be alone. You have to make a conscious decision to want to pick yourself up. If you dwell on all these thoughts, they will make you go crazy. If you feel like nothing in this world will ever make you happy again or if you feel suicidal then you need to let someone close know.
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