avelonia2013 Posted May 29, 2013 Posted May 29, 2013 (edited) ..finally. I kept telling myself, "I can't cry yet I have too much to do!" Well, the dam finally broke. I stopped for comfort food on my home and I could feel it building up in the middle of the restaurant and I haaad to get out of there. As soon as I reached the car the flood gates opened and I cried all the way home. Still crying. I miss him, I miss my Mom and even though I have a wonderful family, who would stand by my side in any battle, I feel so alone. I'm just sooo tired. Since my divorce (decades ago now), I've always felt I had to do it all myself and that I wasn't aloud to need anyone and that's such a lie. I DO want to need someone. Someone who enjoys being with me and wants to understand me and I them. Just needed to vent. Thanks for reading. PS - a mini rant about being told, "let's be friends" by your recent ex. If the one you love tells you they want to be friends while you're trying to mend your broken heart - tell them to shove it where the sun don't shine! Heck, tell me and I will drive to their house and punch them in the nose for you! Okay, I don't advocate violence and I'm definitely not a violent person, but I mean seriously, who says that?! Especially as you're sitting there with a shattered heart?! WTH?! I never understood that. Who the h*ll wants to be friends while you're hurting?! So, if you hear that make sure you tell them to stick it and hang up or walk away. Rant over. Sorry. I just keep seeing posters being told that and I think it's a really insensitive thing for someone to say. Edited May 29, 2013 by avelonia2013
Ale khun Posted May 29, 2013 Posted May 29, 2013 When u think that u can't cry no more ,something always happens . I'm sorry u feel that way .I'll send u the name and address so u can pay him a visit ( just kidding ) I hope you feel better 1
Leigh 87 Posted May 29, 2013 Posted May 29, 2013 I just always want to cry as soon as I think about him or my dogs that I have had to say goodbye to forever. I cry my eyes out every day lately. Although my mood is not depressive in general and I feel happy outside of the times I cry my eyes out. I feel hope for the future while at the same time I just cry and cry and cry. I am sorry you are in pain. I am in a lot of pain too. I guess we can all be in pain together...
Treasa Posted May 29, 2013 Posted May 29, 2013 ..finally. I kept telling myself, "I can't cry yet I have too much to do!" Well, the dam finally broke. I stopped for comfort food on my home and I could feel it building up in the middle of the restaurant and I haaad to get out of there. As soon as I reached the car the flood gates opened and I cried all the way home. Still crying. I miss him, I miss my Mom and even though I have a wonderful family, who would stand by my side in any battle, I feel so alone. I'm just sooo tired. Since my divorce (decades ago now), I've always felt I had to do it all myself and that I wasn't aloud to need anyone and that's such a lie. I DO want to need someone. Someone who enjoys being with me and wants to understand me and I them. Just needed to vent. Thanks for reading. PS - a mini rant about being told, "let's be friends" by your recent ex. If the one you love tells you they want to be friends while you're trying to mend your broken heart - tell them to shove it where the sun don't shine! Heck, tell me and I will drive to their house and punch them in the nose for you! Okay, I don't advocate violence and I'm definitely not a violent person, but I mean seriously, who says that?! Especially as you're sitting there with a shattered heart?! WTH?! I never understood that. Who the h*ll wants to be friends while you're hurting?! So, if you hear that make sure you tell them to stick it and hang up or walk away. Rant over. Sorry. I just keep seeing posters being told that and I think it's a really insensitive thing for someone to say. Aww, sweetie. I get what you're saying. Big hugs, love.
smorgenHeckengard Posted May 29, 2013 Posted May 29, 2013 Sometimes it's just better to let it out. With me I always try to bury my pain, but it only makes it come out at even worse times. Give yourself time to grieve. Cry as much as you have to, and then when you're done never cry for the same reason (person) again.
Author avelonia2013 Posted May 29, 2013 Author Posted May 29, 2013 Thank you for the support. I've been holding in the tears for days now and I'm so glad the flood gates finally opened. I really needed to cry and let it out. It felt good and I know it's part of the healing process and I have to just roll with it for now. No worries...I'm sticking to it this time and allowing myself to feel every single feeling. I won't allow myself to accept anything less than what I want and deserve. I love him and miss him, but I can't and won't accept those terms. It's strange, I used to be afraid to say I love him and miss him, even on boards such as this, and now I'm not. Very weird. I wonder what that means.
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