New to all of this

[CharlotteX]

Well where to start I've just turnt 24 and my ex is 22. We was together for 3 and half years and lived together for only 4 months, we have a 2 and half year old son and broke up 11 weeks ago now. I'm still not coping very well at all.

 

History of our relationship:

 

Well I was his first girlfriend and first love we were perfectly happy together for the first year. About this time his dads company went bust and they literally lost everything I was heavily preg at this time which you can imagine caused us a lot of stress. My partner become really down at this point and got stuck in a rut. We made it through despite me leaving many times. In our relationship Ive frequently left him and I can see now it was ridiculous but it was always in the heat of the moment because he has such a bad attitude. Even his own family always say how moody and stuff he is from where he was so spoilt growing up. He would always come back and apologise and say he would change I loved him so much I would hope he would. I should prob also note me and his sis didn't really ever see eye to eye. She is extremely possessive of him and has a lot of influence on the decisions he makes in life, she would make catty comments and it got so bad at one point I made him stop contact with her for 6 months I know now it was wrong of me but I wanted him to be his own person and stand on his two feet for me and his son. My ex works extremely hard 6 days a week and the only time he would go out is to the football. He would say going out drinking with his friends doesn't interest him he's more of a family man. The last 6 months of our relationship was a war zone. We moved in together and I was so happy but he quickly changed he was very bitter towards me and that I didn't work as I care for our young son he would call me a ponce and in anger say he could do better then me. I felt extremely low as I knew I was losing him and I kept saying you don't love me no more do you and he would say yeah I do but I didn't feel it, in 4 months of living together I had already gone back home twice but the roles changed each time I had to beg to come bk. Our rows got worse because I felt he had already emotionally checked out the relationship. He would just say he was tired of the rows, well so was I but he wasn't helping the matters sulking around not talking to me. Finally after a massive row I said I was going to my mums and didn't think I was coming back. I then heard nothing from him. He had had enough.

 

Since the break up I've been so depressed I just don't think I will ever be happy again. He has started the gym lost loads of weight is really confident and happy again. He's out with his friends all the time again drinking. He told me and all of them that I took him away from them. He got back in contact again with a girl he fancied before me and him met. And they have met up and stuff he says she just an old friend but I know its more, my whole life has fell apart. Vie started seeing a councillor to try help me with issues I have. I really want him back but I don't think it will ever happen I've begged and begged. Please don't people say if the relationship was so bad please why you want him back, because this person he has become I feel like it isn't him. He says he will always love me he just don't like me I don't know what to do anymore

[roaminghart11]

It is great that you have started seeing a counselor, that sounds like the best possible thing that you could do.

 

I really hope that the sessions will help you. Best wishes!