Just can't get over this girl no matter what

[King Bowls]

I've had a crush on the same girl for many months now, even though we do not talk anymore. Our friendship ended back in September when I left her house and she we never talked again-why we didnt was because apparently she didnt think it was right and things like that.

 

I've been told by many to let it go, find other girls, things like that. But I just can't grasp that, for whatever reason. I look for girls that look like her. I've had so many dreams with her in it there's got to be something up. What should I do to keep trying to move on?

 

I'd appreciate quality advice. Ill type up the whole story if I have to to get a better advice-if needed

[Shepp]

Unless theres more of a reason than what you've said there, why do you need to get over her? Why don't you just win her?

[King Bowls]

Well I will just type it all out. It will be long but I think it's worth it for the answers ill get ( I get quality answers on this board)

 

I will begin with some background, how it started.

 

Back in June of last year, I sent her a message via Facebook asking if she wanted to start talking again. Prior to this, we had not talked since December 2010 or the early months of 2010 (I don't remember exactly)

We exchanged numbers and started talking again. This is how it began

 

 

In my next point, I will talk about what happened between the time we started talking again, to the time in ended, I will try to keep it as short as possible. We texted back and forth frequently, and wanted so bad to see each other. The problem with that being i didn't have my drivers license and she loved 30 something miles away. A friend of mine eventually took me with him to her house (he is her cousin) to hang out and went out to eat. After that, we went back to her house, hung out a little, and talked. Days later, we texted still, but it came down to where she wouldn't reply for a couple of days. Fast foward to September 11, she texted me saying I should go to her game that Saturday (game as in she's on the school dance team that performs at halftime). I did that, we hung out at her house afterwards, I spent the night, then went home at about 11 am the next morning. Then that was it. I texted her the following Thursday, never got a response. Then my friends younger brother, who goes to school with my younger brother, told him she told him everything. So that morning when I left her house was the last time we ever talked in any way, shape, or form.

 

 

Why she doesn't want to talk to me, I do not know. But I will admit I made the mistakes of texting more than once after her not responding. Like I text, she doesn't respond for 2 days, I text again 2 days after, may or may not have gotten a reply.

 

 

Iv asked myself what is it about her that I like so much where I can't let go. She's not the prettiest girl I've ever seen (still pretty though) and now when I see girls I look for ones that look like her, and or have her first name. And like I said I don't know what it is that's so special, I can't pick it out, because I honeslty don't know. But there has not been a day since that morning of sept 16, that I have not thought about her, and I'm always wondering what it would be like to have an encounter with her in person again. And as states in my first post I still have dreams with her in it frequently.

 

What to do, well the easy answer is move on. But it's not that easy, as I still can go a day without thinking about her, even though I know she doesn't want to talk to me (if she did she would have by now-it's been many months since September 2012.

 

If I need to explain any more details in my post to get a better answer, just point it out.

[King Bowls]

With what I have said does this make this girl my first love?