BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 27, 2013 Posted May 27, 2013 (edited) Sucks to be awake at 2:30am, but I work nights. So I walk outside for a smoke, and there it is staring at me, big, bright, beautiful. The Moon. Unfortunately she was the first thing it made me think of. We always loved looking at the night sky together- loved the moon, and I once told her I wish I had just a tiny piece of it to make as an engagement ring stone. Silly. Sometimes it gets really quiet at work, my work-partner is out cold, and thats usually when I start to think. I cannot believe its been one whole year, and although I'm doing ok, I have these "break-through" moments of saddness. Normal, I guess. Just hard to believe there went eight years of my life- nine if you count the last year as grieving. Even now I get moments where I can't believe this is real- it's truly forever over. She's long gone, happy with someone else, and I'm more than likely not even a random thought. Oh well, nobody ever said reality was gonna be fun. Lucky for me my dreams of her are rare and sporatic, not like in the beginning. I know those too will eventually fade to black. Yes, time is really a wonderful healer. Not only to heal the pain, erase the emotions associated with memories, but to allow me to stand back, look at the bigger picture and realize just how incredibly toxic she was/ we were together. Amazing thing, those sands of time. Sorry for the random rant, was just having an emotional back-slide kinda thing. Onward....... Edited May 27, 2013 by BrokenHeartedSavior Sp 6
moneyneversleeps Posted May 27, 2013 Posted May 27, 2013 I get goosebumps when i read your comments. It's beautiful poetry. I can't help to wonder sometimes why we are on LS and they aren't. Are they stronger? Why would they prefer to be with someone else then work on a relationship with such a long history. Sad sad truth. I hope you find the love of your life and eternal happiness.. 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 27, 2013 Author Posted May 27, 2013 Thank you. I don't know why either. Some people just aren't that deep, I guess.
BustedUpInside Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Oh my gosh! That part about making an engagement ring out of a piece of the moon? That is sooooo romantic. I am not sure why we are the ones who can't seem to completely forget the other person, but I am willing to hazard a guess that they can't forget either. They just aren't on this forum. I know that my ex really liked to live inside his own head when it came to emotional things, so even if he spent all day thinking about me, no one but him would ever know. Maybe your ex is like that too. Maybe not. The point is that you are better off for being a caring and emotional person. You will ultimately have a richer and more fulfilling life because of your bigger capacity for loving another person. Congratulations on your continued healing and I really like to read your posts on here 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 Thank you so much, sometimes the words just flow. I appreciate your compliments. I like to think I made at least some mark in her world. Yep, I loved her that much, and in my humble mind, no other man could match the way I felt, I'm sure we all loved our ex's like that, but I gues in retrospect it doesn't matter anymore. My ex lived inside her own head as well, I coud rarely tell "where she was at" Blah! I hate having those moments of memories hahaha And thank you all for your continued support! Truly great people on this forum! Ok, back to for me. 2
Empty Heart Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 You sound like a lovely man....you will be a real catch for the next lucky lady that you meet....I wish you the best of everything because when someone can feel those things, they are a special person indeed. 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 Thank you for the kind words
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 I liked this post. I remember some months after I first met my ex.... texting him about the full moon while he was out of town... and he responded after checking it out himself. a sweet exchange. Ironically? I too noticed the full moon this weekend and remembered that night of text exchanges and quick phone call. I missed him. And then I saw your original post, but ignored it. Strange what triggers our memories, isn't it? 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 Thank you, Yep, that's a trigger I don't think will ever change for me. Funny, no matter that we're no longer together and never will be again, we'll always be looking at the same object. And thats the same for you and your ex, he'll always remember that call whenever he glimpses at the Moon. I guess ya just gotta look at that in a bittersweet way. It was something we "had" When I proposed to her it was in the middle of a wide open field, on a spring night under a full moon. (On purpose) Blah! Lol glad you liked the post.
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 And thats the same for you and your ex, he'll always remember that call whenever he glimpses at the Moon. HAHAHAHAHHA. *BOOM* Oh sorry, that was me falling out of my chair laughing so hard. That cold hearted turd will never remember that moment. EVER. Ruh roh... yep, this is anger rolling in..... It's about damn time. Regardless, I loved this post of yours because I totally understand/understood where you were coming from. Loved it.
TaraMaiden Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 For me, looking at the moon is a reminder that actually, putting things into proportion, beautiful as it undoubtedly is, in the end it's just a tiny piece of grit floating around the universe.... and we are so much smaller.... And the moon was there millions of years before we were... and that it will still be there long after we're gone... which adds frailty and a precious unrepeatable touch to our lives...... I see the stars, millions of light-years away... and the assured knowledge that I may be gazing in wonder at something that actually may no longer exist - is utterly mind-boggling.... This universe is so much bigger than we are - yet when we break up, we say that it's the end of our world.... Stop and think how, in light of this subject, what an utterly daft phrase that is..... 1
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 For me, looking at the moon is a reminder that actually, putting things into proportion, beautiful as it undoubtedly is, in the end it's just a tiny piece of grit floating around the universe.... and we are so much smaller.... And the moon was there millions of years before we were... and that it will still be there long after we're gone... which adds frailty and a precious unrepeatable touch to our lives...... I see the stars, millions of light-years away... and the assured knowledge that I may be gazing in wonder at something that actually may no longer exist - is utterly mind-boggling.... This universe is so much bigger than we are - yet when we break up, we say that it's the end of our world.... Stop and think how, in light of this subject, what an utterly daft phrase that is..... Oh man.... ruin a good moment with science, will ya? I much preferred the depressing and self serving direction the thread was taking versus this life universe perspective you sprung on us. :laugh: 1
TaraMaiden Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Aaaah, yes....... Trust TM to take a beautiful piece of melancholy and pour water on it..... 2
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 @ aisuru, I'm sorry. But if it makes you feel any better, my ex is probably night-sky watching with someone else anyways! Jokes on me. @ Tara, wow (as always ;)You have an amazing ability to put things into common sense perspective. "And the moon was there millions of years before we were... and that it will still be there long after we're gone... which adds frailty and a precious unrepeatable touch to our lives......" Very true. It was just one of those weak moments 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 "Trust TM to take a beautiful piece of melancholy and pour water on it....." Lol now THAT'S what I'm talking about, you made me laugh at my own friggin post! 1
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 "Trust TM to take a beautiful piece of melancholy and pour water on it....." Lol now THAT'S what I'm talking about, you made me laugh at my own friggin post! She's stealing my moodiness away and it's rather annoying. Do not encourage her!!! Now back to the moon and land of impossible. STAT! 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 Hahahaha, I don't think I can compete with TaraMaiden
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Hahahaha, I don't think I can compete with TaraMaiden QUITTER!!! That's nice. 1
BustedUpInside Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 I wish I knew how old everyone was on this site. Sometimes I want to make pop culture reference jokes, or inappropriate innuendos, but I am not quite sure if I am scandalizing the elderly or corrupting the youth. Sigh............
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 QUITTER!!! That's nice. Hahaha, as SOON as I saw her name, I knew it was gonna be a losing battle BUT! I'll still have my memories:sick:
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 (edited) I wish I knew how old everyone was on this site. Sometimes I want to make pop culture reference jokes, or inappropriate innuendos, but I am not quite sure if I am scandalizing the elderly or corrupting the youth. Sigh............ Elderly here (hahaha) turned 46 a week ago. (I'm a guy- not sensitive about my age Lol) Edited May 28, 2013 by BrokenHeartedSavior
BustedUpInside Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Elderly here (hahaha) turned 46 a week ago. Anywhere between 30 and 60 is the audience I am looking for 2
aisuru Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Hahaha, as SOON as I saw her name, I knew it was gonna be a losing battle BUT! I'll still have my memories:sick: Yeah see, she's like a wet blanket. It's just not right all that power she has... :/ (36, almost 37 year old female here)
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 28, 2013 Author Posted May 28, 2013 Yeah see, she's like a wet blanket. It's just not right. (36, almost 37 year old female here) Yeah but I guess thats good sometimes because dying romantic flames need that to be extinguished
BustedUpInside Posted May 28, 2013 Posted May 28, 2013 Yeah but I guess thats good sometimes because dying romantic flames need that to be extinguished I don't know. All this talk about the moon, engagement rings, the universe..........science; it has kind of put me in the mood for romance 1
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