XD005 Posted May 26, 2013 Posted May 26, 2013 So growing up, I had strong sexual desires as much young men do. Only thing is, I never got opportunities to act them out. It wasn't until really late in life I even got a chance to feel a girl up. I think I was16. Only thing is I had a habit of speaking my mind and being truthful about my values, made her mad and she didn't want anything to do with me anymore. So I went my entire high school life without ever getting "any". I was raised to wait until marriage for sex which I had intended to do for the most part but there were little "windows" of time where I was just like **** it. As I got older, I got less sexually frustrated, although I never did really get any. Then I got my first kiss VERY late. At 18, I had my first make-out session. But I was still a virgin. I met this REALLY slutty girl I could have had sex with but decided against it as I was confident I'd eventually meet a nice virgin girl like myself, it didn't happen. Now I'm 20 and I've met this really nice girl. Only problem is she isn't a virgin and I like her so much. It actually hurts a bit to think that some guy got something so easily out of her that I value so much myself. She told me the guy pressured her into it and then they did it a lot, afterward. And sure we make out and touch each other but her extreme sex drive has kind of rubbed off on me. Only thing is i'm scared to have sex with her. Of course the thought of having sex with someone you like sounds amazing to me but it also brings me some anxiety and disappointment as shes so much more experienced than me. Sometimes I wish I'd have just met her sooner, or made my own sexual history. I dunno, I kind of got myself in this mess as I was trying not for a person's past to make a difference in whether I talk to them or not. And I have the option of asking her for a "Hall Pass" to just go find a virgin girl and have sex with her but that dosen't feel like the right thing to do. Cause then I'll be cheating her out of my virginity even though she can't give me hers back. On the other hand, I do kind of like that she has such a active sex drive and I imagine thats somewhat hard to find, plus I like her, I don't know if I'll ever find a girl as amazing as her. Also in the back of my mind, I feel like there is a possibility that I'm worrying about this too soon as we've only been dating for about a month or two but I guess we might just be moving too fast but things are definitely heading towards sex already I can tell... But I just don't know if I want to remain a virgin or have sex already now. If I stay a virgin, I might wonder what sex is like with other girls besides the one I marry. If I lose it now, I run the risk of "blowing" my virginity on a girl I might not even end up with long-term.
Aicha Posted May 26, 2013 Posted May 26, 2013 as she is experienced and you are not the best first sexual experience you may want to try is her on top. i know she would prefer that. most experienced girls do
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