marigo Posted May 26, 2013 Posted May 26, 2013 I met him towards the end of 2011 and we dated for 6 months. He was leaving for deployment and things ended because he said he didnt want to be in a relationship and deal with long distance relationship. After things ended, i was asking him things that eventually led him to say that i was pushing him away. We both went completely NC after that and 4 months later, he contacted me again. I was in shock and decided for days whether or not i should respond. I know i shouldnt have but i did but i was cold. I thought he was gonna apologize about everything but didnt. To be honest, it felt good to see him try to keep the conversation going. Because at one point when we were dating, i felt like i was the only one trying. We ended up talking everyday and it felt really good. He constantly kept bringing up that he still didnt want to be in a relationship. I love him but i never pushed for anything. We talked everyday that he was on deployment (at least almost everyday) and when he came back, we continued to talk. We ended up hanging out once and things were back to how it was before. We were acting like a couple and ended up hooking up. We continued talking still. Fast forward to 2-3 weeks ago, i felt like he was becoming distant. I was becoming a bit more affectionate and i thought it mightve scared him off a little. Its just hard not to show any type of emotions with him. I talked to him about being distant but he said that there's nothing's wrong. Finally last weekend, we talked about our status and he bluntly said that we are just friends and it's never gonna happen between us. He was very cruel and sounded like he didnt care at all but i felt like he needed to do that to get it to my head. I wanted to end the argument but felt like he was keeping it going. I tried explaining myself but he hasnt responded to me and now i feel so empty. I didnt push for a relationship. Do i want it? Yes, but i know he didnt so i agreed to have that friendship instead. Now im blaming myself for everything. For acting affectionate and emotional that eventually scared him. Now i completely lost him. Even as a friend, i lost him. There's still that possibility he mightve met someone else, who knows. Its been a week and i feel like im dead. I want to so badly to talk to him but i know i cant. The only thing that keeps me going now is the thought that one day he will respond because he did this once already. Help, i dont know what to do. I dont know how to be okay again.
crazy1234 Posted May 26, 2013 Posted May 26, 2013 He is just being a d-bag and you should consider moving on as soon as you can.You'r trying to play with fire here.You guys hooked up this time around and all he says is that u guys are friends?are you trying to tell me that he didnt know what he was doing with his ex trying to reaquaint past emotions?No dear,he knew exactly what he was doing and just like any other girl u ended up falling for him again.Think about it,if only you had'nt replied to his text you would be in a happier state today.So looking back at exs are never a right choice.You will be okay soon just hang in there,hangout with your friends,keep yourself busy and please dont cling onto the thought that he'll respond oneday.Even if he does,you shouldnt.
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