ConfusedT Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 Backstory: he is a cheater and abusive, i was forced to leave- having dumpee symptoms So, i dont know what the hell overcame me today, but I have literally wanted to text this man ALL DAY. I tried to make excuses in my head to justify reasons to text him. I have actually had multiple messages typed all the way out and just basically erased them and then thought of something else to text him so i would type that out and text him again. Nothing that was important, nothing that couldn't have waited, nothing that meant anything other than to have some type of contact with him. So instead of being weak & texting him, I am coming here to tell you all that I am FEELING but not ACTING on my weakness. Thanks for listening..
Author ConfusedT Posted May 24, 2013 Author Posted May 24, 2013 I didn't by the grace of God's holy hand... My self-control is at 1 out of 100 at this point, but somewhere inside of me feels that I deserve better which is why I haven't followed through with the text. It feels bad right now but I know it will get better with time. Thank you, I remember how empowered I felt when I was completely indifferent to even speaking to the person.. I know that is a long time away but at least now I can pour out to the people that I know have my back, LS!! Thank you!!
BustedUpInside Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 Think of it like you would any addiction. You can't expect to quit cold turkey and then never have any cravings at all. For any addiction it takes at least 4 weeks for those intense cravings to go away. For all urges, it can take years. You have to get used to your new life without the old routine and habits. Congratulations on your awesome progress so far though. Being able to actually erase or delete the texts is a good start and you can keep going! This site and all the people on here will help you every step of the way.
itto ogami Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 And trust me, NOTHING you text will be as good as whatever you will think you SHOULD HAVE TEXTED later. Not one or six lines will result in results. SILENCE is the LOUDEST message you can send now. And the most powerful and empowering. You can do it! 3
Chi townD Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 Good on you! Remember, he cheated on you. He gave himself to someone else and left you in the gutter. Remember that the next time to start to compose a text to him. It's a beautiful day out. Go do something! Go for a nice bike ride, or window shop at some antique stores, or go for a little run. Go to the mall and do some light shopping. Do something! STAY BUSY!!!
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