Chrisal23 Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 Hi , Lately I've been feeling really down these past couple of days. Long story short my ex and I have been together for 3 years. About 6-8 months ago we broke up but 1 month after the breakup we talked and got close again but never went back out. She was the one that wanted to go out but I was the one that was hesitant and not because I didn't love her. Honestly I was careless and wanted to clarify things before going back out but school and the weekends got in the way I guess. We were close and had sex also. This last time we had sex she changed. She asked for space and I didn't understand why. I kept on hitting her up and annoying her which I hated but couldn't accept that she needed space. She said that she still loved me but she wanted to do her own thing. I was upset and asked her if she saw herself going back out with me and she said she didn't know but that it didn't mean bye forever neither. I really feel lonely and thought this would be a great place to vent my feelings. As of today I am committed to give her the space she wants. It really hurts to accept that I'm loosing her. I really love this girl but I also understand that I'm too needy and should learn to live without her if I even hope to be with her again. Can this really be a goodbye forever? I am so hurt and I want to love myself and be happy independently but I miss her and wish I could have her as my mate again.....
aisuru Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 One day at a time my friend. While you give her space, you should work on you. Whatever that entails. Lots of good advice around these boards. Read all the old threads if you need to. I know I read a lot of them (even the very old ones) in the early days of my breakup.
Author Chrisal23 Posted May 24, 2013 Author Posted May 24, 2013 Yea I've felt like I knew the truth I just feel like I can't accept it. My ex wouldn't mind hanging out with me but she said that I couldn't hold her hand or do anything in that manner. So I'd rather not see her at all, but what sucks is that we go to the same church and I will surely see her there.
thefooloftheyear Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 "I want some space" ...usually translates to.. " I want some space so I can see this new hot guy thats got my attention".... Sorry to say..I could be wrong, but...Someone who cares and loves someone deeply never wants "space" away from that person..They want to end it, but either they need you as a security blanket or they dont want to drop you on your head.. Your journey begins..I wish you well TFY 3
Author Chrisal23 Posted May 24, 2013 Author Posted May 24, 2013 That's exactly what ran in my mind, that she wanted to see another guy and was letting me down easy. She repeated to me multiple times that she didn't want to date anyone, and that she wanted space to just worry about herself.:(Each morning I wake up it feels like I'm having a bad nightmare that won't go away. Most people would say its time to move on but I still have hope for some reason.Idk why I have such a hard time letting go.
Chi townD Posted May 24, 2013 Posted May 24, 2013 That's exactly what ran in my mind, that she wanted to see another guy and was letting me down easy. She repeated to me multiple times that she didn't want to date anyone, and that she wanted space to just worry about herself.:(Each morning I wake up it feels like I'm having a bad nightmare that won't go away. Most people would say its time to move on but I still have hope for some reason.Idk why I have such a hard time letting go. Yeah, right. I believe that one! Do you honestly believe that she's going to tell you that there's someone else and make herself out to be the bad guy in all of this so you can hate her and think she's a bad person? She's not going to say, " Yeah, sorry but I'm sorta dating someone else. That's why the last time we had sex it was awkward because it felt like I was cheating on him with you."
Author Chrisal23 Posted May 25, 2013 Author Posted May 25, 2013 Today is day 2 of NC. I'm having mixed emotions. I feel good then really frustrated! I feel in denial that she dosen't want to be with me. I'ts really tough. On top of that I might bump into her at church tomorrow. Idk if I could play my cool. iT f****** sucks how I'm feeling like Sh** and she's able to go on with her life and enjoy it.
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