Kay_29 Posted May 23, 2013 Posted May 23, 2013 My insecurities got the best of me. I was in an 8month relationship before this one and my boyfriend played me like a fiddle, he was very charming funny and witty. We spent time together and enjoyed each others company but at the same time I wasn’t the only one, well with that being said everything in the dark came to light and that it did. I found out he was cheating. It took 2-3 months to get out of the relationship having never been cheated on and not knowing how to channel my emotions of it happening I didn’t know if I could work through it to trust him again and I couldn’t I became super insecure, i wasn’t the LIFE of the party anymore I wasn’t my VIBRANT self, confidence slowly became depressing.... then I left got over you and was doing good. … guess I didn’t love him to much Then I met this guy, 2 months later that swept me off my feet.... I didn’t think I would find someone so quick I wasn’t looking but stumbled into him.... it felt so right. He was special, made me laugh, gave me attention the chemistry felt so real... we had our ups and downs and disagreements but we had this connection where we understood each other... 3 months later another woman called my phone telling me how she was seeing him for a while an didn’t realize he had a girlfriend and when she found out she left an decided to me... He denied and i believed.... everything was over email so it could’ a came from anywhere so it was so hard to prove... once again became insecure.. started checking and breaking into your fb, checking your twitter, and your laptop , checking your trash for condoms... i turned crazy and started searching for things. SIGH..... my insecurities pushed you away, now the relationship is done…. I forgive and move on easily but with this one it was just to real.. He wanted to be friends and work on us but with the sense of us being single and me working on my issues… but if he loved me so much why couldn’t we work through this together in a committed relationship. We lasted a year and a half. why am I still in love.... ??? Hurt but I know the reality to move on…
ddlovexx Posted May 23, 2013 Posted May 23, 2013 Both scum. If someone wants to be with you, they will- no ifs, ands, or buts. You don't deserve what they put you though and you CAN NOT let this get to your self esteem. I was in a similar situation 3x, and this last one ended with him basically leaving me for another girl. The first few times it happened, I lost myself... sometimes it's only natural. I stopped thinking I was good enough (because apparently I wasn't, right?). But **** that. Each and every one of us is SO special and the right guy will see that and never ever compromise it. When you love someone, they are all you see. You are blinded. I know you still love, but it will pass. Why would you want to be with someone who treats you this way when you can find one who will think you're the greatest thing ever created? My sister has always told me we have to kiss a few frogs before we find our prince. Go out with your friends, rearrange your room, go shopping, meet new people. Do things that make you feel good and you'll back to your old self in no time.It will get easier, and don't forget how spectacular you are.
Author Kay_29 Posted May 24, 2013 Author Posted May 24, 2013 Thanks ddlovexx... Your right, love isnt brain surgery when its real it lasts it shouldnt waver. well its been a full week of NC and it does get better. I read your first post on here and our situation is very similar.. This site has deff helped ALOT nice to know that we all go through it and can live through... I'll be fine just gotta shake this.
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