BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 23, 2013 Posted May 23, 2013 Well, today officialy makes ONE YEAR post BU, and maybe 6 months no contact? It's very weird, as I can't really say that I "miss" or "love" her. In fact, I don't really know who she is, she's TRULY become a stranger in my mind. I can't recall what her hair feels or smells like, I can't recall what it feels like to hold her in my arms, I can't recall what it was like to kiss her, be physical with her. I simply cannot tactily recall those things. I still think of her, but then I ask myself what exactly am I thinking of? What am I remembering? Very odd. I THINK that I'm trying desperately to hold on to fading feelings? Memories? I honestly do not know. Seems like such needless self inflicting torture. It's stupid and pointless, but it seems automatic. Over the past year I have not accomplished anything more than getting a nice place, and furnishing it MY way, whilst removing all traces of her, so I guess at this one year marker I should kick my butt in gear and work on the physical me. Funny how very clear it is that it HAS BEEN over for more than a year, yet it takes so much time for acceptance (at least it did for me) Which brings me to this PHENOMINAL forum! I only wish I'd known about Love Shack earlier on after my breakup. Yes, we ALL in the same boat, in one form or another. The people on LS are nothing short of amazing. I truly believe the people on here saved my life. There is no better "therapy" in my opinion. Now I just wonder if I should visit LS as much as I do, I wonder if it's keeping my BU alive? Then again I see many people on this forum who have been here for years. Either way, I made it to the one year mark, and I'm not in great shape, but I'm alive Lol
BustedUpInside Posted May 23, 2013 Posted May 23, 2013 You don't know me and my opinion may not mean much, but I think you have actually accomplished a lot in the last year. You have made yourself a new life, and given yourself a fresh start. You can choose to think about your ex?! That is absolutely fan-freaking-tastic. I honestly cannot say how truly phenomenal that really is. I cannot wait to be at a place where I don't need to vent on LS anymore and I can just sort of choose whether to hang out here or not. You are a great model for everyone on here and I really hope to be where you are at in another couple of months. 1
Author BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 23, 2013 Author Posted May 23, 2013 @BustedUp, Thanks so much for the cheers! I DO know you, along with many great people who are all healing, and your opinion certainly DOES matter You will ABSOLUTELY get to this point. I didn't think I would. Yes! Getting my own place together has kept me busy- and happy. It was very depressing at times, even scary, as we'd lived together for many years. So yeah, I guess I actually did accomplish something. And I think I'm gonna hang here on LS a while longer! Thank you! 1
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