Hockeyguy19 Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 Well, here I am, a week in. It still hurts like hell but Im having moments where I'm okay and feel a bit better, but it's a rollercoaster all the time. I miss the hell out of her, but it's just the good times, I don't miss the fights, the lies, the deciet. I miss the little things, the handmade cards, the notes on the whiteboard, the smell of her hair in the am, the stuff that makes us hurt. I find the memories of her a slowly leaving my brain, one small part at a time and it's good to begin to move on. I know I have to. I want to. It's one of the hardest things losing someone you love, and who you thought loved you the same, I don't wish this pain on anyone, everyone here knows that pain, and I'm sorry your all dealing in your own way as well. Thanks everyone again for the love and support, I'm hurting, but I'm pushing through. 2
youngnlove89 Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 Well, here I am, a week in. It still hurts like hell but Im having moments where I'm okay and feel a bit better, but it's a rollercoaster all the time. I miss the hell out of her, but it's just the good times, I don't miss the fights, the lies, the deciet. I miss the little things, the handmade cards, the notes on the whiteboard, the smell of her hair in the am, the stuff that makes us hurt. I find the memories of her a slowly leaving my brain, one small part at a time and it's good to begin to move on. I know I have to. I want to. It's one of the hardest things losing someone you love, and who you thought loved you the same, I don't wish this pain on anyone, everyone here knows that pain, and I'm sorry your all dealing in your own way as well. Thanks everyone again for the love and support, I'm hurting, but I'm pushing through. It's tough and you are only a week in. It's way too early for you to conclude that you are healing. What you feel on your "up" days is denial and shock, those can subside the feelings of despair and heart break. Hang in there. Feel the pain. Live with it. Learn to accept it. It's going to be by your side for awhile. It's good that you are going through it instead of avoiding it and saving it for later. Keep posting here. Write your feelings down everyday on Word Document or in a journal. Keep a log. Keep yourself busy as much as possible, but NEVER try to mask the pain. Feel it. Be it. 2
Ale khun Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 hi hockeyguy19 is there any way you can send me a private message i want to share something with you its a book that a friend gave me fpd it really helped me a lot
BustedUpInside Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 You will be ok. You sound strong. Crossing my fingers for you!
Author Hockeyguy19 Posted May 22, 2013 Author Posted May 22, 2013 hi hockeyguy19 is there any way you can send me a private message i want to share something with you its a book that a friend gave me fpd it really helped me a lot I can't unfortunately as I'm not an established member yet, but I would love anything you can send me I would appreciate it! Bustedupinside, thank you for the kind words, I used to be so strong, nothing phased me and I was a rock for all those around me, always there for advice, guidance and help. I was also the life of the party any time I went out, always laughing, always chatting with everyone. It's frustrating that I let one young girl who had gigs bring me down this hard. It's angers and frustrates me to no end that I can't put her out of my mind. I am strong minded and admit that I think I'm addicted to the connection of someone, it's a tough one to break after a decade of dependence. (5 years, then 9 months after that 3 years with her) I hate being alone but i need to learn to be with me 1
Ale khun Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 It's a couple of books from Walter Riso , "The limits of love" and the other "Love or Rely"I really hope you can read this books , Good luck my friend and keep posting I hope one day all this "phase" goes away . 1
Author Hockeyguy19 Posted May 23, 2013 Author Posted May 23, 2013 It's a couple of books from Walter Riso , "The limits of love" and the other "Love or Rely"I really hope you can read this books , Good luck my friend and keep posting I hope one day all this "phase" goes away . I will definitely check these out, thank you so much!
Ale khun Posted May 23, 2013 Posted May 23, 2013 I hope you find the books if not i will try to post them little by little keep smiling
Recommended Posts