aisuru Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 I'm not even sure why... Not sure why I'm posting this. A coworker/friend just found out today the ex and I split. She was surprised and probed a bit when I was being evasive. While I'm in a decent place emotionally, it reminded me that I don't really know why. I may never know why. I assume he and I will speak again based on our breakup talk and the last time I saw him. But sometimes, I just don't even want to give him that. Why should I give him that. Ugh. But our relationship was good and our breakup wasn't nasty. And I do miss him. I'm somewhere past the denial and bargaining stages of grief for sure. Dancing around depression and anger stages I guess. Definitely some acceptance. Glad the anxiety has dissipated and the urge to eat has mildly returned. I haven't been able to get to the gym due to work and mild laziness, aka hiding from reality for a bit. Need to whip that back into shape. The high from making the decision to return to school has eased up a bit and I'm in that limbo of continuing to work at a job I loved for so long that will end between now and the time school starts, but I'm not sure when. Lots of life changes right now. I'm not overwhelmed so much as antsy with this holding pattern. And guess who I just want to talk all this out with? Ugh.
th90 Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 Sounds all too familiar to me. All I can say is it will pass sooner or later. Stay strong 1
BrokenHeartedSavior Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 Ugh! I lost probably 30 pounds of muscle in the past year! No appetite, lack of desire to hit the gym. Meanwhile? I've heard my ex is training for MARATHONS! Go figure? TIME TO LET GO! I just turned 46 (days ago) and Just realizing SHE AIN'T comming back- I Don't even know who she is, just someone I vaguely remember now. 1
youngnlove89 Posted May 22, 2013 Posted May 22, 2013 I guess it's normal. I went to bed last night at 3:30 pm and didn't wake up till 5 this morning. I only ate lunch yesterday. It sucks sometimes. This is part of it though. We have to go through all this to get to indifference, no way around it. 1
Author aisuru Posted May 22, 2013 Author Posted May 22, 2013 Thanks you guys. I can feel the shift in me. So that's good. I lost 20lbs in less than six weeks, sadly half of it was probably muscle tone. Grrr. I resumed my vitamin schedule now that I'm eating enough for them to not make me sick. I've always been very fit and active, so this annoys me, but I know it too shall pass. Life transitions are interesting aren't they? This morning I signed up for two upcoming 5k races. One this weekend and one next month. Nobody to go with me, but I miss my running. I get to register for my fall classes in one hour. Baby steps.
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