DrDave92 Posted May 21, 2013 Posted May 21, 2013 (edited) i had been feeling quite optimistic and having some good days before i recently returned home for summer from university. Having a lot of time to myself is obviously what i need to recover but at the same time my mind goes into overdrive and i can't stop thinking about my ex (who broke up with me after 2 years 4 weeks ago) she text me the other day after a few weeks of no contact saying she hoped i had a good day at my goddaughters christening and to pass on her regards, initially i didn't want to respond and maintain NC but i finally replied by simply saying 'no problem' and we haven't spoke since. I don't actually want to get back with her but i do miss her an awful lot especially now i'm home when i'd usually be spending so much time with her. It still hurts like hell. My friends all work through the week and i live in a village with no car and no job opportunities so it's all quite bleak, the only thing i can really do is go to the gym when it opens. On top of this my ex literally lives over the road from me and to go to the gym i have to walk right past her house, the whole situation is just a bit of a nightmare. At the weekend i went to a party at my friends house and had sex with a girl who's apparently thought i was 'hot' for quite a long time, i was really drunk and don't really know how it happened. I feel bad as i have no feelings for this girl and i haven't contacted her since it happened although i feel like i should. Sometimes people say 'the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else' but that doesn't seem to be the case for me. I don't want another relationship for a while but at the same time i really miss having someone there and in particular i miss the way my ex used to be with me however i know the girl she was in the end wasn't right for me. My mind is in overdrive and i'm struggling with my emotions at the moment. Edited May 21, 2013 by DrDave92
BustedUpInside Posted May 21, 2013 Posted May 21, 2013 Awww, that is so hard. I feel like one of the worst parts of a break up is getting used to just being by yourself again. I applaud you for sticking to No Contact so well. Just think how bad it would be if you hadn't hung in there and ignored her so consistently. Is there a route to the gym where you don't have to walk by her house?
ihateher83 Posted May 21, 2013 Posted May 21, 2013 i feel your pain man .... it's been 7 months since my ex broke up with me ..i've had sex with a few girls ... dated one .. and still i'm back to square one ... did NC a few times .... i was just told there is no hope for my ex wanting me back ... so i feel ya pain man ... try and distract yourself as much as possible
Author DrDave92 Posted May 21, 2013 Author Posted May 21, 2013 unfortunately there's no way i can get to the gym without going past her house. 4 months of this is going to kill me and even when i go back to university she is starting there in September so i'm bound to see her all the time. I miss her like hell even though she treat me so badly. I'm maintaining NC but that is being made easier by her not contacting me at all bar for the christening the other day (which she was invited to before the breakup.) i'm almost 21 and she's 18 so i understand it was unlikely to work long term but it doesn't make it any easier. It's hard to picture a day i want another relationship and a day i'll find someone i want a relationship with at the moment. This whole breakup has left me in tatters and all this time alone with her so nearby and not much to keep me distracted is really making things incredibly difficult
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