tinam Posted May 18, 2013 Posted May 18, 2013 I feel so ill. I have to try and get through work knowing he's coming to take the kids to the beach. What we always did together as a family. Then wonder if he's he gonna stick around to talk or do i have to ho through another week like this ! Of all days to have to work ho. I can't call off . God please let me get through this day! This sucks so bad. Gonna take every bit of strength not to cry all the way to work! Can't be a mess when i get there. God i hate him for doing this to me. I just want my life back!!
Shocked Suzie Posted May 18, 2013 Posted May 18, 2013 I feel so ill. I have to try and get through work knowing he's coming to take the kids to the beach. What we always did together as a family. Then wonder if he's he gonna stick around to talk or do i have to ho through another week like this ! Of all days to have to work ho. I can't call off . God please let me get through this day! This sucks so bad. Gonna take every bit of strength not to cry all the way to work! Can't be a mess when i get there. God i hate him for doing this to me. I just want my life back!! (((((Hugs Tina))))) Feel your pain! Work was my rock! Let people know you are having some dramas, you'll be amazed at the support....Also if people are aware you can take time out for a few min's if needed. You don't need to go into detail xxxx He owes you a chat, you'll get done direction then X
Steadfast Posted May 18, 2013 Posted May 18, 2013 I deserve better than this but its just devastating to me. He was my everything... This is from an earlier thread. I'm showing it here because it's potentially your biggest hurdle. If 'your everything' isn't there anymore, what's left? We 'deserve' no more than we give. It's apparent that you've given your all, and now that it's not being returned (was it ever?) the sense of loss is overwhelming. Ask yourself why? Why do we place that kind of burden on someone else? Loving with your all seems the right thing. But is it? There is no getting around the heartbreak. Day by day, hour by hour. See this event in your life as a chance to right old wrongs. It is possible. You can do it. People stay together when they have the desire to stay together. One-half of your deal is broken. That's reality. Focus on you. Your kids. Grasp your reality and run with it. Allow what's happened to make you a stronger, more secure person. Secure in herself. Not dependent on others for her happiness. It's the only way you'll ever be truly happy. Let him go. 1
Author tinam Posted May 18, 2013 Author Posted May 18, 2013 (((((Hugs Tina))))) Feel your pain! Work was my rock! Let people know you are having some dramas, you'll be amazed at the support....Also if people are aware you can take time out for a few min's if needed. You don't need to go into detail xxxx He owes you a chat, you'll get done direction then X Im a private duty home health aid. With this one lady all day. No way to really escape and think a minute. Don't want to give her details she's always asking questions about my husband. Knife through heart.
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