PennGuy Posted May 17, 2013 Posted May 17, 2013 I feel like I am backsliding. The nicer it gets outdoors the more I start to miss her. Part of me was under the impression that dealing with a breakup during the fall/winter compounded problems and once the weather turned I would feel better. I miss my balcony that she decorated oh so cute...I miss watering the plants out there....I miss kayaking with her....camping with her....flea markets....Sunday morning breakfasts...Wine tasting festivals...woods walks with her, the dog, and I. Weddings... dinner and wine outside on summer evenings...the smell of summer with the bedroom windows open when I woke up next to her. There's so much this woman did for me. I will be forever grateful for her being part of my life for that long. She was a gift. Summers with her were amazing. I just hope she is happy now. I just want to be over this. It's now closer to the one year anniversary of our breakup than it is since we were together. 7 months. She's moved on. Why can't I? I've accepted that it's over. I've came to terms with the fact she isn't coming back. I don't engage in any ex-drama....I've handled this so so well in regards to my dignity and respect for her. There will be so much I will do differently in my next relationship. I never want to experience anything like this again. So many times I didn't treat her like she deserved. Looks like it will be a lonely summer.
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