Letter to the other half of nefsled

[nefsled]

My relationship ended a few months ago. I wrote a letter to my ex but I do not wish for him to see it. I want to share it with someone I hope you don't mind me posting it here.

 

I know you'll never see this and it's probably best that you don't. We live different lives. We are different people. You will never know how you touched my heart or what you meant to me. You taught me so much about this world and life.

 

I hold so many happy memories. Our first day trip together... how we used to get the giggles... countless hours we spent in your truck... talking to you on the phone until we feel asleep... Your cute text messages and email's telling me that you love me... how you used to say I want to marry you and let's just go get married this weekend. There is just too many to list but I hold every memory close to my heart.

 

You looked at life so differently. The smallest things made you happy. I thought you were crazy when you said you wanted to name our relationship but shortly after we named us it gave us being us a whole new meaning. The name nefsled holds a lot of history.

 

No one has ever made me feel the way you made me feel. I can't explain it other than it was meant to be. I used to believe that meant to be was forever but now I know it's not. You came into my life for a reason and you needed to leave for a reason. I no longer made you happy or made you feel complete. You found someone better. The pain from us ending will never go away. I tried so hard to get you back.. I begged.. I cried and cried.

 

I do not blame you for leaving but I do blame your for the way it ended. I must admit that I do get angry when I think about how cruel you were when we ended. I thought I meant enough to you to give me a hug goodbye or explain to me why it had to end. You would not even tell me why or explain until I begged for several days. You are pretty stubborn.

 

You confused me so much. After we ended you told me you loved me and you wanted my name tattooed on your arm but yet most of the time you wouldn't even talk to me or even acknowledge I existed. You had a new girl within a couple of days. You said she was just a friend but yet you spent every waking moment with her. I know she means a lot to you and I know she is the one that opened your eyes and made you realize we needed to end. I used to get very jealous but now I am happy for you. I don't want you to be alone and I really do want you to be happy. I hope she treats you well.

 

I think about you daily and probably always will. I will always hold a special place for you in my heart. I will cry little tears now and then missing you. I accept that we are over and I have moved on with my life. I am more independent. I have new priorities and goals. I have learned that good things in life don't last forever and to live life to the fullest because you never appreciate what you had until it's gone. I won't take anyone or anything that god gave me for granite again. I want to be the best person that I can be.

 

You probably don't understand why I still think about you. I promise I have found closure and I do not dwell on being us anymore. The memories are worth keeping and just understand that I can not forget my soul mate or what you meant to me. Thank you for loving me as long as you did and thank for for teaching me so much. More than anything thank for being you.

 

I love you Nefsled

[disconcertainly]

wow! That was very deep, I think it is great that you can let your feelings out like that. When the time is right I think one day you should let him read your letter.

Good Luck!