ConfusedT Posted May 15, 2013 Posted May 15, 2013 Day 1 DOWN, starting on Day 2. No texts/calls from him so hopefully it stays that way so I can be strong. I guess day by day gets easier because I really need things to get easier for me. Even though I left him and even though he put me through HELL, i still loved him even when I didnt receive love in return and thats ok- just something i have to deal with i suppose. i know there will be ups and downs, but if i dont find my own worth, i will ALWAYS keep going through heartbreaks...
Zahara Posted May 15, 2013 Posted May 15, 2013 What have you decided to do about his things? No point counting the days of NC when you're still hiding behind his stuff, waiting for him to pick it up. NC is about cutting all ties and triggers and removing yourself from anything involving the ex. Fresh start, painful as it is. He will text in a few days about his things and you'll be back panicking about what to do. Coming on LS asking how not to be a doormat, if you should deliver his things or wait for him to pick up, again. Or maybe you're still holding on to his stuff because it's your only way to keep that door slightly ajar for him, just incase? I believe so. 1
Author ConfusedT Posted May 15, 2013 Author Posted May 15, 2013 Our friend just came and took his stuff. So no more doormat and no more ties.. this is for the best...
Zahara Posted May 15, 2013 Posted May 15, 2013 Our friend just came and took his stuff. So no more doormat and no more ties.. this is for the best... Turn that frown upside down, girl! Kudos to you! You'll discover soon enough that it was one of the best decisions you've ever made for yourself. It's hard, I know. Been there with the cheaters but in time you'll slap yourself upside the head for making yourself feel miserable over a douchebag.
Author ConfusedT Posted May 15, 2013 Author Posted May 15, 2013 Yes I am starting therapy this Friday, thank God. I'm not even sure where all this stems from, hopefully therapy will be able to at least identify and initiate some resolution in what the HELL my problem is. The sad part is, besides those two, I've only had two other relationships in my life. One in highschool (sweetheart) and then my kids dad (just didnt work). That is pretty blatant , but it's completely the truth. I guess you're attracted to what you're familiar with and you accept the love you think you deserve, I wish I felt I deserve more. I KNOW i do, i just don't know why my actions don't align with my thoughts.....
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