harhar Posted May 14, 2013 Posted May 14, 2013 THIS IS LONG, BUT READ IT, YOU'LL ENJOY IT.. University in a nutshell. Realistically, I lived on residence for my first year in September and I met someone that lived four doors down from me that literally had everything in common. She claimed that she was absolutely smitten by me, and essentially we started "seeing" each other. We were inseperable for the first few months of the year, and I do find it pathetic that i'm posting this now, seeing as I still think about her every single day for long periods, and it's been 4 months. Our relationship lasted for less than five months, and I never felt this way about anyone in my entire life. I was attached to this girl, I even threatned to drop out of my new Fraternity. Everyone told me that first year relationships fail, and they fail horribly. We broke up twice, once for her not being able to trust me, and the second because she just wanted to end it because I was never on residence to be with her because of my Fraternity. A week after my initiation, we got into an arguement and I drove back home from college (6 hours) and she started missing me, asking me to come back and so I cut my trip short and returned after She LITERALLY humilated me on the phone the night before infront of her friends emplying that she doesn't want anything to do with me and that I should stop calling her. I drove 6 hours the day after to find her only giving me 20 minutes of her day to break up with me in person and told me that she literally had a movie to finish and told me to **** off... Someone that told me she loved me first, great right? What bothered me the most about her, that I was TOO NAIVE to realize was, before I started seeing her she had broke up with her boyfriend from back home of a year, and in less than 2 weeks she was spreading her legs, to me. She continued to talk to him, under the impression that they were long time friends, and I told her I didn't care, nor would I control her desires to talk to him, which was also NAIVE. Pathetic, this guy loved her as much as I did and the poor guy would have normal conversations with her while I was sleeping with her everynight, unaware of my existance.. I eneded up DROPPING out of University, I became cynical, in regards to women, education and friendships. I couldn't handle being on the same floor, and my grades suffered because of my involvement with the fraternity and her. I can literally write a book about my first year experience with everything... And to top everything of my fellow LoveShack users, there was another guy on the floor that replaced me after I left. Her and Ex boyfriend got back together and then they broke up again, and she sought to replace my voide with the fellow Floor member. She finished her first year, and I'm currently persuing my education elsewhere. I still think about her all the time, and how horrible she treated me. I'm jaded, and quite frankly, I'm scared to date again. I lost 10 pounds, I was depressed and I couldn't get her out of my mind. She knew that I was in emotional pain, as she literally lived four doors down but continued to insult me, tell the other girls on the floor that I was crazy , until they figured out I wasn't the issue. She just wanted me out of her life claiming that I was a dramaqueen for going back home.. like it's ****ed up... She literally got over me in 2 weeks, and now I feel so empty, even until now. How can a person do that, knowing that there is an Ex boyfriend back home that still cares about you, and yet you end screwing another guy and hiding a relationship, then going back to him.. That's ****ing crazy in my own opinion. He's generally clueless of my involvement with her, So there you go, bitches be crazy and I'm the ****ed up one because I was in love with someone that misled me and treated me like a doormat. Right. I'm not over it, and I still in a way miss what we had, before she changed, before I was forced to hate her to get over her, and of course I was ridiculed by my own fraternity for dropping out of school at the end, it was a volatile environment with no hope of a future, (Changed my major to business now from the Arts at my new institution). Life sucks, and I'm in debt and I feel heart broken until now, which I believe isn't normal. Cheers..
Chi townD Posted May 14, 2013 Posted May 14, 2013 Well, I'm REALLY glad to hear that you didn't actually drop out of school all together. I happy to hear you're continuing your education. And as far as you being a drama queen for leaving the situation; no, you did that for your own sanity. The reason why she was bashing on you is because she had to demonize you. She didn't want to feel guilty about throwing you under the bus, so she needed to make it YOUR fault in her head. " I'd still be with him if he wasn't such a Jackass!" kind of deal. People were probably telling her that she was stupid for dropping you, so she had to make you into the bad guy. But, you know the truth, she's bat sh*t crazy. Now, is the time to be selfish. Start working on yourself. Do well in school. Eat, sleep and keep busy. And above all else. STOP CHECKING UP ON HER! You would have never known she called you a drama queen unless you were inquiring about the situation. THis healing process is going to be a cake walk for you because I believe she probably will never contact you again. So, you don't have to worry about getting breadcrumbs or any of that crap. She's a VERY selfish person and only cares about what's in her immediate life and will stomp on anyone that gets in her way. Time to heal and move on dude.
iouaname Posted May 14, 2013 Posted May 14, 2013 A week after my initiation, we got into an arguement and I drove back home from college (6 hours) and she started missing me, asking me to come back and so I cut my trip short and returned after She LITERALLY humilated me on the phone the night before infront of her friends emplying that she doesn't want anything to do with me and that I should stop calling her. She knew that I was in emotional pain, as she literally lived four doors down but continued to insult me, tell the other girls on the floor that I was crazy , until they figured out I wasn't the issue. She just wanted me out of her life claiming that I was a dramaqueen for going back home.. like it's ****ed up... She literally got over me in 2 weeks, and now I feel so empty, even until now. So there you go, bitches be crazy and I'm the ****ed up one because I was in love with someone that misled me and treated me like a doormat. Right. I haven't posted much lately but when I saw this I felt the need to respond, because I have had a really similar experience. My ex broke up with me and would continually pull me back into his life after I tried to cut contact, and then proceeded to call me crazy, insane, etc. when he found out that I wasn't doing okay. The worst part is that I couldn't even express how I felt without being called a victim. It hurt really bad, and it still hurts really bad, but the one thing I've realized is that everyone has their own reality. She's not saying what she's saying because you're a crazy person, she's saying it because she's projecting her own reality onto you. It's her way of shaking off responsibility for hurting you. Don't be upset for feeling the way you feel. You're allowed to be upset. You're allowed to be broken. You're allowed to be humiliated. Let it affect you - because then, you'll grow from it.
Author harhar Posted May 14, 2013 Author Posted May 14, 2013 I appreciate the replies guys, I wish more people would put more input into threads, but realistically It killed me, I feel stronger and thick skinned, but I also feel empty. Do you think it's right what she did to her Ex? I don't know why I couldn't stop it back then and told her this was wrong.
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