swiftly333 Posted May 14, 2013 Posted May 14, 2013 I'm just sick of all this. I want to yell in his face all kinds of nasty things. I want to call him up and beg him for another chance. I want to tell him I'm sorry for handling it badly. I want to call him a piece of sh&t, a child, and emotionally stunted poor excuse of a man who isn't with the ***** that comes out of him. I want to explain. I want him to explain. I want to apologize. But I want him to apologize! How dare he!? And he called me heartless? I've only ever been honest an genuine. He's an emotionally abusive and manipulative as$ hole who's dragging me through the mud all while wearing his "I'm a good man" costume. It's not fooling any body! Except *maybe* himself. When will I finally come to terms that he's not the man I though he was; that who I loved and who I wanted back just doesn't exist. He's not real anymore. Why oh why can I just let this go?? When will I stop being so stupid!? 1
SimonSerenade Posted May 14, 2013 Posted May 14, 2013 Your not stupid, your feelings are natural, horrible and unfair but natural, there will be an ending one day, it might not seem like there's light at the end of the tunnel but there will be, I know feeling like this is hard but doesn't that prove something to you?, your human and you completely accept and embrace yourself and all of your emotions, that's more than what can be said about your ex, a good man would of explained his actions and had compromise and compassion in his heart, he is not a good man, he doesn't deserve you, one day you will realise that and you won't feel a need to give him this that and all the other, trust me, right now I'm in the some boat, I want to shout at be for putting me through this, I want to just deflate and cry my heart out in her arms, I want to beg and plead for another chance but it won't change anything and It would only give her the satisfaction of knowing she means everything in the world to me and I'll have to settle for meaning nothing, it's not fair is it :/. 1
Author swiftly333 Posted May 14, 2013 Author Posted May 14, 2013 I was angry in that moment, but I'm calmer now. I shouldn't assume anything at this point..... I'm just a bit thrown off.
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