Enjaycee Posted May 13, 2013 Posted May 13, 2013 (edited) Hello, I am a 21 year old senior at my college, looking to graduate next Spring. This summer, I am serving as an orientation leader. Unfortunately, I am serving this last term with my ex girlfriend (and my first love), who is also an orientation leader at our school. Part of being an OL at our school is that we have to live together as we get ready to do freshman orientations throughout the summer, so that means I have to live and work with my ex for the duration of the summer. We broke up last June serving our first terms as OL's, and we both decided to do it again this summer. Throughout the past year since we broke up, I have been on an emotional roller coaster, going back and forth between wanting her back and wanting to get away from her for good. I was absolutely head over heels for this girl, and now I've been confused more times than I can count. I have tried numerous times to get her back, with no success, and I have also dated and slept with new women (I even tried online dating), but memories of have kept crawling into my head over the past year and I end up second-guessing myself all the time. My emotions carried into my job at the school's tutoring center, causing me to act unprofessionally and get fired last fall after having been caught trying to pursue a new relationship with one of the students I was tutoring (I'm currently on the right track to redeeming myself with my former bosses and getting my job back this summer, though). I've read about a million combinations of get-your-ex-back, get-over-your-ex, get-a-new-girlfriend, boost-your-confidence, etc. guides, I've gone to counseling, I've talked to my closest friends and my parents, and I've spent plenty of time to myself to ponder things. To this day, I STILL think about her at least once everyday. I check her Facebook every so often (can't help myself), and I even tried to have a civil conversation with her in person a couple times (we argued a lot in the past, even after we broke up), while she is enjoying her own life, and she is even now about to get a new boyfriend. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm still wondering whether I should just try to avoid her completely, or at least try to be nice to her as I try to survive the summer being in such close proximity to her all the time. I've considered going back to counseling, talking to her and telling her how I feel, or just sucking it up for the next few months (we will still be on campus after the summer, but I won't have to be anywhere near her). I want to get on with my life, get a new girlfriend, and focus on my career, but seeing her around and is causing me to hold myself back from moving forward. I could use a few, or a lot of, words of advice, or similar stories. Please help this dumb college kid get on with his life? Edited May 13, 2013 by Enjaycee
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