Leigh 87 Posted May 13, 2013 Posted May 13, 2013 I am going to give Vision Australia, a charity near where I live, a cal. Way before I met my ex I would go for Saturday morning walks with the blind. It is volunteering yes, but I enjoyed it a lot as I really love long walks, and I also enjoy talking to people lol; especially people who love life in spite of having a set back. What else am I doing to get my life on track? Andrew leaving me is the kick up the @ss I needed. I get called into this Indian restaurant next door literally to my flat and I do well there, my fist job in years. It may not last but I think I am doing well so far. I let my body go in the relationship, which is fine as it happens to the best of us. I was one extreme when I met him ( under my healthy weight, health food obsessed) then I went to the other extreme ( binge drinking, eating anything and everything in front of me) NOW I am really looking forward to balance; eating healthly 80% of the time, as I want to live a long and healthy life where I look youthful and healthy for as long as possible. I also naturally like healthy food, and have what I crave when I want it (in terms of junk). I also enjoy being active in ways that I enjoy - slow jobs are my thing. Listening to music and getting my frustrations out helps lift my mood A LOT, and I enjoy slow running so it is not like I am forcing myself to do it for some event; it is something I enjoy doing enough to make it a part of my life forever. Until I am you know. Old. In addition to eating well and exercising, volunteering and completing my degree, I am also making friends. For the first time in my adult life actually. My anorexia and eating disorder was with me for so long that I lost my identity; I was just about maintaining a slim weight. I did not actually starve, I ate 2000 cals a lot of the time, I just maintained a too low weight FOR ME; this clouded my thoughts, since I have the genes where I cannot be at a too low weight for my body type. Since Andrew, I have come a long way; I have developed my personality. Now, I am at he stage where I Have one or two very good friends, and a bunch of new acquaintances. So it seems if I stay on the right track of being healthy but still enjoying the odd treat, and looking after my mental and physical health in general, I will be as happy as I can be. Which I already was happy before; I am an extremely grateful women, every day I honestly do thank god that I am alive and without serious disease. I am about to go no contact with a guy I am madly in love with tomorrow. He is dropping one last thing off and I am giving his clothes back tonight. ............................... Yes I do hope that after I get my life on track and move in the right direction, that he will want me back and love me too much to let go for a long while (and hence ask for another shot cus he cannot get me outa his head). The thing is, if I maintain the no contact, I will be enjoying my life, not knowing what he is doing, and I will end up moving on even if he does not ask for me back.
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