Today is very bad :,( I'm so down ! Going backwards not forwards

[Flutterbyme]

It feels like I'm going backwards not forwards :,(

 

Yesterday I had no choice but to text him about our account we own jointly and how both of us have to be there in person to close it. I worked myself up he didn't reply for about 6 hours then replied and we made a day next Saturday to go and close it but I can't help but think my friend probably text him asking him to reply if this is the case I'm so annoyed :,(

 

I don't know if it's the thought of seeing him quickly next week or what but I dreamt of him last night and I'm so so so down. I want to move on I really do but I feel so weak and emotional.

 

This ex hurt me , he left me after 2 years to be free and single and get with other women . I did nothing but help my ex and support him and I feel as though he led me on believing he loved me.

 

He hasn't contacted me since the break up about a week ago now and neither did I except for this account thing.

 

I hate this I feel so down I used to suffer depression and I'm afraid it will come back :,( I'm even getting jealous of people saying I want my ex back (dumper) no one has ever wanted me back

[whisperoftheheart]

Seeing the ex for the first time, in any situ will make you anxious. Chances are aswell he too feels like that.

At least you are showing a logical mind set to him by tidying up loose ends (with the account)

In the end, i'd rather know that I had put my all into a relationship, and have it fail rather than always kicking myself because I could have done more. Seeing him again may spark something within him, but once this is done with take the time to look after yourself. Reconnect with people, if you need to say something maybe come here and express it. Were all here for you! If he cant see what your worth then someone else will I gaurentee that! Time heals everything. Take it day by day and do things that are right for you and your happiness.