lovehurts5 Posted May 11, 2013 Posted May 11, 2013 Ughh so upset and anxious right now... My boyfriend and I, both 25, have been in a relationship for only 5 months. We've had a bit of a bumpy ride in the beginning because his head wasn't fully committed for the first 2.5 months. The past 2.5 though have been amazing! He makes me laugh unlike anyone i've ever met before, we are always together when we get the chance even though our schedules are the complete opposite, we've told each other that we love each other and he has apologized for not being the best he could be in the beginning. So anyway, even my friends have been asking about him and I just got done telling them how awesome things are going and how happy I am... well, I jinxed myself completely. Last night I went out with my girlfriends which I hardly ever do and got home around 2am. He worked until 1am (bartender) and then went out afterwards with his friends. So after I got home I was texting him and he told me that his friend gave him a pill and that he didn't know what it was but he wanted to be honest with me. So I didn't freak out on him (i'm really not into drugs or people that do them) I just called him and calmy talked to him and asked if he needed a ride home. He said that he was fine and had to go and hung up on me. So 1. I was pissed he took something 2. I was pissed he hung up on me. So I had extreme anxiety and my heart was racing so I called him around 4:30 and he was sitting in his car and his friends had left him stranded at the bar and he's going on and on about how you come into this world alone and you leave the world alone and how he doesn't need anyone. And I was like please let me come get you and he was saying no. So he got home around 5 and that's when I fell asleep. This morning he was texting me like everything never happened and I was being a little standoffish because I was upset with him. Then my one friend who I was out last night told me that her boyfriend saw him out last night and that he was on E and from the looks of it thought that we were broken up because he didn't think i'd go for someone like that. So I called him and told him this story and he was like I wasn't even on E I took a vicadin and that was after I saw the kid and I wasn't even near anyone when I saw him. So we talked it out and I told him that I believed him and that people were prob just starting stuff. THEN he calls me like a half hour later and tells me his friend who gave him the Vicodin said that he heard that I said that his friend drugged him. Which I never said. So my boyfriend is like so now all these people are talking **** about me when the only person I told anything was you because I wanted to be honest with you. So now he's mad at ME. He said this is why I should just be alone because I don't have to deal with this crap of people talking about me. So I let a few hours pass to let him cool off and I texted him that I love him. He said Yeah. I said i'm sorry i'll leave you alone. And he said K. I'm just so upset because now I feel like it's all turned around on me and I didn't even do anything! Thoughts??
silvermercy Posted May 11, 2013 Posted May 11, 2013 I'm sorry you have to go through this crap. Nobody deserves that. Are you really sure that this guy is the one for you? He even turned it around on you and he's angry at you (when it is HIS fault that people talk about him). I'm surprised you're not more angry at him! If I were you "I" would hung up on him and wouldn't talk to him for a month at least. Actually scratch that, I'd just show him the door!
Author lovehurts5 Posted May 11, 2013 Author Posted May 11, 2013 I mean I was with someone before him for 4 years and was sure he was the one. Then I was single for about 9 months, tried dating here and there, but my boyfriend now is the only one that created a spark. He really does make me happy but this was just a curve ball and now i'm worried that he's second guessing the relationship even though I didn't do anything. You'd think i'd be more angry but my brain has an issue where I care more about other people's happiness. If they're happy then I am. I don't always put myself first so it's easy for people to walk all over me. I know I shouldn't be that way but I just am. I just hope he realizes this is silly and winds up apologizing to me for making me feel so badly for doing nothing.
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