cassy Posted May 10, 2013 Posted May 10, 2013 I am hurting a lot. I broke up with my boyf of 6 months yesterday. I am on probation and have an ignition interlock (breathalyser) in my car and i got the call from my PO yesterday saying i had 2 fails at 4 am & then at 430 am a month ago (Apr 7) and that there was a guy who blew into it (i luckily had the camera installed so it took a picture). I can not believe my boyf did this to me! He blew a .17 the first time and then 30 mins later a .21 so it came out on the most recent report. He is denying it but i saw the picture with my own eyes! If i get my probation revoked I go to prison! That night before and that night we had a huge fight, he showed up drunk to my house at 2 am, and i even had to leave because he would not leave so he must have got a hold of my car keys and snuck back at 4 am & blew into my car! We eventually got back together but i had no idea he did this to me until yesterday! He didnt say anything! So i called him yesterday and asked how could he do this to me and he still denied it! I loved him so much...I am hurting because i thought he really loved me too and i would never even do that to my worst enemy but he did it to me...the one he said he loves more than he ever loved anybody. Why do i still love him and trying to make excuses for him even for something this serious? He text me this morning for his things and saying that it was me who blew into it, not him, etc etc, i mean he is obviously not good for me or for anyone, right? But am I also sick to still miss him?
lunar83 Posted May 11, 2013 Posted May 11, 2013 Ofcourse it's normal, heart needs time to catch up with the mind. That's why no contact is so important. My opinion :-)
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