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Dumped, hopeless, lost and very suicidal. Do I have to take pills to overcome

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Dumped, hopeless, lost and very suicidal. Do I have to take pills to overcome the suicidal thoughts or does it ever go away? It's been 4 months. I have been trying to stay positive, do positive, meet positive people but in vain. No one knows about this situation I am in except you guys who are reading this. I am leading a pretty normal life and no one has a clue about me feeling this way. I am too ashamed to let anyone have a clue as I do not want to let my friends or family down. Don't want to worry them, making them feel that am weak and fragile who cannot handle her own problems. Am 29 already!

 

Wondering if pills are the only way I can overcome these thoughts. Also, part of the reason might also be that we were still in touch to finish returning our stuff to each other and etc. as I moved out. I finally made the courageous decision to tell him that I do not want to talk to him for a few months - told him that yesterday over the phone. But secretly, my wish is to never ever talk to him from then on. So my journey 'technically' has begun just yesterday where finally will have no contact with him. Mentally am much more content to not have to talk to him anymore. However the suicidal thoughts seem to be a constant factor in these 4 months!

 

It would be great if you could shed some light on this based on your knowledge. Thanks in advance!

shiver23 Established Member

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You might not have to be "on pills" but you DO need to talk to a professional. If you have a counsellor's office (if you are in university/college) they usually provide free services. There's a lot of ways to get better other than pills, but you need to talk to a professional about these suicidal thoughts. They won't just "go away" on their own. I speak from experience. I've landed in the emergency room at hospitals because I just couldn't handle it anymore (I've never attempted, but in some ways the thoughts are worse.)

 

Please get the help you need.

 

Just my two bits.

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aisuru Established Member

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Oh, I'm so sorry. I know that feeling. :(

 

Here is what I do.

 

During the day, I work, go to the gym, try to schedule time with friends if possible, and get home as late in the evening as possible (unless a friend comes here to keep me company). And then, I take a sleeping pill between 9 and 10. Because it's night time when I'm not moving that the thoughts get the better of me.

 

Last night I didn't take the sleeping pill, got really sad as I drank (UGH) with the neighbors, and drunk texted him.

 

This morning, and the majority of the day, I felt sick to my stomach over it.

 

No more. If taking a sleeping pill in the quiet times at night helps me hide from the brunt of the pain, then that's what I will do.

 

I would recommend same to you. Work, write, exercise, focus on you. See a doctor or therapist if you need to. It's okay to ask for help.

mtnbiker3000 Established Member

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Do NOT be afraid to talk to family and close friends! They love you and will do anything for you. You need them. You can rely on them!! Please get help anyway you can! Who cares if you are 19, 29, 59 or 109. No man is worth what you are feeling. Please seek help!!

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Don't underestimate the effect of reaching out to your friends. It really does help - I promise.

 

I've been overseas for a while now and have no friends here. All my friends are back in the US. The girl I loved dearly for 3 years left me last Christmas and started seeing someone within 2 months.

 

I was broken, torn, and in pain. I drank and then drank some more. I had suicidal thoughts for weeks and it was only because of my friends I was able to get through it. I couldn't talk to them in person because I was in a different country. But just chatting with them online helped a lot.

 

I promise you that reaching out to people definitely helps. You may think that they don't care about your problems, but I assure you that you have friends that care. Don't be afraid to tell them what you are going through.

 

You will get through this.

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I can't thank you guys enough for taking the time to help me with your advice! I have spoken to a psychiatric hospital and if I don't feel better by May 22nd I am going to just walk in there. As of now my wanting and step by step plan and homework to commit suicide is not so extreme, in the sense that I am able to control it without proceeding further with it. If I am unable to forget it or control it by the 22nd then I am going to just get myself admitted over there! 22nd of May because I want to take days off and plan my visit to the hospital accordingly. Don't want to lose my job or other project work stuff for these thoughts. Which hopefully I am sure should go away some day! I hope (and although I am not religious I secretly pray!)

aisuru Established Member

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I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm glad to hear you have some kind of plan in mind.

 

The reality of lie is that you'll end up in relationships. Most of them end (obviously). It's how you handle the end that matters.

 

You will be okay.. Take care of you..

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