NEED GUIDANCE. Broke up out of no where. First Loves. G.I.G.S.? What do I do?

[Blckrooster46]

So about two weeks ago my girlfriend of 14 months broke up with me, I was her first boyfriend and first guy she ever told I love you to. She was 19 when we started dating and I was 20, now I am 21 about to turn 22 and she just turned 21. The two of us have know each other since we were 6 and 5, her parents are family friends, since we were younger our parents always joked about us ending up together and I just never saw her that way. She has always been pretty but I just saw her as a sweet girl and actually had a crush on her older sister. But about a year ago she kind of blossomed into a gorgeous young woman and I saw her as one for the first time. We began dating and fell in love. In the beginning I was only really attracted to her psychically, then we started to talk and I realized she was the most intelligent, funny, and kind hearted girl I have had the pleasure of meeting. So I decided to date her and it was amazing she fell for me and I for her it took me six months to say I love you to her and I guess I should've been worried when see didn't say it back but then a few days later she did and I just figured it was because she is the type of person that has difficulty talking about her feelings, so am I and it's part of the reason I love her. Throughout the relationship she was extremely attached to me; she didn't like it when I went out, cried if she thought I would break up with her over silly things, and even called the character I married in the game skyrim a whore haha. About six months into our relationship she found out her mother was having an affair with someone and her dad told her. When she found out she left her parents home and moved in with me for about a week, we got into a fight while she was staying with me (I was upset with her) and she broke down and told me that I was all she had and she needed me now more than ever. We talked about her parents a bit but I left it alone because, like me, if she doesnt want to talk about something she won't. After that things were great she was her same old loving and attached self and I loved her just as much for it. Then fast forward to 2 weeks ago and she breaks up with me. Things were great from wear I stood but I got paranoid because she had a text from a coworker (short, two time drug offending loser who is most likely going to jail) she saw that I was upset and asked what was wrong and instead of flipping out like I normally would and yelling I just asked her if she was happy and if I made her happy, she said of course I did and came over to me to lay in my lap and try to get me to smile. When I wasn't cheering up she said she was going to leave when the movie e were watching was over because she was tired and had work in the morning, I asked why because we always spent Sunday nights together, and she just said she was tired. So I responded with anger and said fine then just leave now, which she did (this is were I wish to god I had gone after her but I didnt I sat there and did nothing probably losing her because of it). I realized what an idiot I was being and drove to her house but she wasnt there I called her and she said she was at her cousins apartment, which she was I checked, but now I knew something was wrong so I texted her and said if you aren't happy we should just end things and move on (preemptive strike) she texted back "what are you talking about/" and I ignored her till we talked on the phone and I called her out for being distant and unhappy (I was just being paranoid, before this day I had no reason to think she was) she said that she guesses she was unhappy for a little while. I went over to her house and we broke up she wouldnt kiss me woundnt hug me things she was doing like crazy hours ago and told me that "she didn't she us spending the rest of our lives together" and that "I loved her more than she loved me." I asked her not to and said we could work on it but she said no and asked me to leave. Also back in January she quit her Job at a high end fashion store to work as a hostess in restaurant, I have worked in restaurants my whole life so I know what its like. The flirting and the constant attention and getting hit on, I am a guy and I got hit on by everyone under the sun so I could only imagine what was happening there. When she told me she was going to leave her job I was against it not only because of how much better her original job was and how it was in her field that she want to make a career (fashion) but also because like I said I know restaurants. I guess if I had to pick a point where things started to change it would be around there but then again two days before we broke up I was tucking her into bed and she said to me "I love you most of all."

 

To be honest I did not handle the break up well I drank for a week, blew off class, and chopped down a small tree. I am doing better now but it is still really hard, so basically I am looking for guidance here; everyone I have talked to has said that she is just young and since she has never been in a relationship before she will realize her mistake and come crawling back to me because it was true love or whatever (I am not lying to myself there believe me, there was a level of closeness between us that some married couples don't have and I believe that is because we have known each other fro so long). So basically what I am asking is: will she come back and if she does should I even take her back? If you would've asked me a week ago I would've said yes in a heart beat but now I am not so sure. I need to know if I should hold onto some part of her or if I should forget her all together. She was not anywhere near the first girl I dated but she was the very first girl I loved and I am her first love as well so I just need to be told what the **** I should do.

 

Also like a month before we broke up she asked me to go on vacation with her and her family, which I had done the year before, I wasn't sure because I thought I might want to travel over the summer and do some things with friends, but about two weeks before we broke up I said that I would love to come and couldn't wait. She got crazy excited and showed me all the pictures of the place we were going and talked to me about the all the things we were going to do. So I just don't understand how feelings can turn off that fast I guess, how can she go from being so in love and plan things for the future and then completely cut me out of her life?

[Blckrooster46]

Okay game over but why, will that other thread give me answers? It just makes zero sense how someone can be that infatuated with me and then suddenly decide she wants to have nothing to do with me.