How could he do this to me? Is it my fault?

[SugarBerry]

Last Friday me and my boyfriend broke up and we decided to take a break, and stopped talking for a week. We then got talking again like we agreed and he started saying he loved me like normal and would forget what happened. Only on Sunday, things took a turn for the worst.

About our relationship a little bit better; I am from the UK and he is from Denmark. We met over an online computer game ''World of Warcraft''. We met at the beginning of December, through a mutual friend. We carried on talking and stayed up until 5-6am in the morning talking and he said he wouldn't go to sleep until I did.. This was very flattering for me as I had been single for nearly 1 year and it was starting to fill the lonely gap I had in my life. The next day we talked from waking up again, until around the same time at night and he asked me if I used WhatsApp and so I gave him my number and we ended up texting till we fell asleep. So to be short, from this moment we were inseparable. We talked all day and did everything on World of Warcraft together, within a few days he was telling me how much he liked me etc. I had been taken off my feet with how he felt, since it had been so long since I had felt wanted by someone so I fell for him so easily.. a week before Christmas we agreed to meet up. I flew to Denmark 4 weeks after and stayed at his house with his family for 5 days, it was great and I was in love so we arranged to meet up again at the beginning of March. Only thing, a few weeks before we agreed to meet things started to crack, we started having silly arguments over nothing.. then one night he told me he didn't want a relationship anymore and I asked why, he told me he was gay and didn't like women? Or well he did, that he liked shemales. My head was screwed from what he said and I remember going to sleep that night feeling such a mess. I woke up the next day and I told him it didn't matter and I would support him through everything because I loved him. He showed me he had some toys, some ladies underwear that he bought for himself. He also told me his good friend, who now has a girlfriend was his ex boyfriend (they never met in real life) but they broke up as his boyfriend wanted to have a family and couldn't with him. Anyway, before I went I bought him a surprise gift of ladies underwear and a toy for himself, he seem'd happy with it. Even though I was so confused by everything but I was so brain washed by his love. When I was with him in real, it didn't feel the same... he was angry at the fact I was sick, I caught the flu right before I was coming to his so I was snoring loud in my sleep and not feeling well in general and kept getting angry at me for it. I went home and I was still sad to leave but it didn't feel as special as the first time. From coming home we just kept arguing about pathetic things, but I still didn't want to leave him.. I thought we could make it work. So after this break, things seem'd good again I thought it had done us the world of good. He seem'd happy, I felt it too. The next day we had a silly argument over nothing, instead of him forgetting about it he kept going on and on at me the argument kept getting worse. He promised to talk with me that night at 9pm, so 9pm came and and went, it got to 10.. so I said, thanks for the message and he went RIGHT THAT'S IT YOU ARE ANNOYING ME and started raging at me again and told me to leave him alone. He then ignored me for a few hours and he had started talking with some other girl in World of Warcraft, he told me to go to sleep and he loved me and wouldn't break up with me but I couldn't stop crying because I wanted to talk with him on Skype but he said he didn't want to and he just wanted to be left alone.. he agreed to text me in bed but I couldn't sleep, I was crying and shaking, I couldn't fall asleep I was feeling dreadful and he eventually stopped texting me without saying anything.. the last thing he said was, yes you are my princess. I got back onto my PC and he was still with this other girl, I asked him why he stopped messaging me and he logged off. Turns out he got this girls number the same day he met her, they were up all night texting each other in bed, added each other on Facebook etc. and by the morning I said goodmorning my love.. he went unanswering but I could see he was online and still there. I asked him what was going on but he kept ignoring me, then he said he couldn't do this and it was over.. I asked why and he said he doesn't care anymore. He told me to go. I was heartbroken.. I left him alone for a few hours and he removed me off everything but he said he will keep me on Skype so if we ever want to talk we can?? I am absolute heartbroken.. Everyone has told me I deserve better than him and he doesn't deserve somebody like me if he can just throw away feelings for somebody just like that. I feel like he has done the same to her as what he did to me, thinking about it, it was just like when we met. He told me they sent each other pictures and they are attracted to each other, she lives in the Netherlands. She told me she didn't want a distance relationship as she has had one before but it didn't work out but I guess she said that to comfort me, otherwise you wouldn't spend all day texting and playing a game with someone you just met. My head is baffled, right now I have blocked him on Skype as I just want him gone but at the same time I am so sad and hurt he has done this to me. Everytime I tell myself I deserve better I end up crying and telling myself I would rather put up with his sh*t than be alone. We were never going to be happy together, he never wanted anything serious where as I want a relationship and to settle down in the near future.

How could he do something like this? It's almost like he has no sense of emotion.... I wish I could just forget him and move on, I am scared of being alone and not meeting anyone else How do I just shut my feelings off like he did?

[Amelie1980]

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[SugarBerry]

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Last Friday me and my boyfriend broke up and we decided to take a break, and stopped talking for a week. We then got talking again like we agreed and he started saying he loved me like normal and would forget what happened. Only on Sunday, things took a turn for the worst.

About our relationship a little bit better; I am from the UK and he is from Denmark. We met over an online computer game ''World of Warcraft''. We met at the beginning of December, through a mutual friend. We carried on talking and stayed up until 5-6am in the morning talking and he said he wouldn't go to sleep until I did.. This was very flattering for me as I had been single for nearly 1 year and it was starting to fill the lonely gap I had in my life. The next day we talked from waking up again, until around the same time at night and he asked me if I used WhatsApp and so I gave him my number and we ended up texting till we fell asleep. So to be short, from this moment we were inseparable. We talked all day and did everything on World of Warcraft together, within a few days he was telling me how much he liked me etc. I had been taken off my feet with how he felt, since it had been so long since I had felt wanted by someone so I fell for him so easily..

a week before Christmas we agreed to meet up. I flew to Denmark 4 weeks after and stayed at his house with his family for 5 days, it was great and I was in love so we arranged to meet up again at the beginning of March. Only thing, a few weeks before we agreed to meet things started to crack, we started having silly arguments over nothing.. then one night he told me he didn't want a relationship anymore and I asked why, he told me he was gay and didn't like women? Or well he did, that he liked shemales. My head was screwed from what he said and I remember going to sleep that night feeling such a mess. I woke up the next day and I told him it didn't matter and I would support him through everything because I loved him. He showed me he had some toys, some ladies underwear that he bought for himself. He also told me his good friend, who now has a girlfriend was his ex boyfriend (they never met in real life) but they broke up as his boyfriend wanted to have a family and couldn't with him.

 

Anyway, before I went I bought him a surprise gift of ladies underwear and a toy for himself, he seem'd happy with it. Even though I was so confused by everything but I was so brain washed by his love. When I was with him in real, it didn't feel the same... he was angry at the fact I was sick, I caught the flu right before I was coming to his so I was snoring loud in my sleep and not feeling well in general and kept getting angry at me for it. I went home and I was still sad to leave but it didn't feel as special as the first time. From coming home we just kept arguing about pathetic things, but I still didn't want to leave him.. I thought we could make it work.

So after this break, things seem'd good again I thought it had done us the world of good. He seem'd happy, I felt it too. The next day we had a silly argument over nothing, instead of him forgetting about it he kept going on and on at me the argument kept getting worse. He promised to talk with me that night at 9pm, so 9pm came and and went, it got to 10.. so I said, thanks for the message and he went RIGHT THAT'S IT YOU ARE ANNOYING ME and started raging at me again and told me to leave him alone. He then ignored me for a few hours and he had started talking with some other girl in World of Warcraft, he told me to go to sleep and he loved me and wouldn't break up with me but I couldn't stop crying because I wanted to talk with him on Skype but he said he didn't want to and he just wanted to be left alone.. he agreed to text me in bed but I couldn't sleep, I was crying and shaking, I couldn't fall asleep I was feeling dreadful and he eventually stopped texting me without saying anything.. the last thing he said was, yes you are my princess.

 

I got back onto my PC and he was still with this other girl, I asked him why he stopped messaging me and he logged off. Turns out he got this girls number the same day he met her, they were up all night texting each other in bed, added each other on Facebook etc. and by the morning I said goodmorning my love.. he went unanswering but I could see he was online and still there. I asked him what was going on but he kept ignoring me, then he said he couldn't do this and it was over.. I asked why and he said he doesn't care anymore. He told me to go. I was heartbroken.. I left him alone for a few hours and he removed me off everything but he said he will keep me on Skype so if we ever want to talk we can?? I am absolute heartbroken.. Everyone has told me I deserve better than him and he doesn't deserve somebody like me if he can just throw away feelings for somebody just like that.

I feel like he has done the same to her as what he did to me, thinking about it, it was just like when we met. He told me they sent each other pictures and they are attracted to each other, she lives in the Netherlands. She told me she didn't want a distance relationship as she has had one before but it didn't work out but I guess she said that to comfort me, otherwise you wouldn't spend all day texting and playing a game with someone you just met. My head is baffled, right now I have blocked him on Skype as I just want him gone but at the same time I am so sad and hurt he has done this to me. Everytime I tell myself I deserve better I end up crying and telling myself I would rather put up with his sh*t than be alone. We were never going to be happy together, he never wanted anything serious where as I want a relationship and to settle down in the near future.

How could he do something like this? It's almost like he has no sense of emotion.... I wish I could just forget him and move on, I am scared of being alone and not meeting anyone else How do I just shut my feelings off like he did?

 

P.S. - I hope that's easier to read, sorry folks.