chantiq Posted May 5, 2013 Posted May 5, 2013 My boyfriend of 2 years moved out of our house just a little less than a month ago. At the time he just claimed he needed space to clear his head because he has always jumped from relationship to relationship and is confused about what he wants for his life.Throughout our whole relationship he was always confused about his life. It was a common theme. This was hard, but I saw it necessary for us both, as we were caught up in the routine and both weren't really going anywhere. We cared for each other so much and the chemistry and passion is off the charts. Neither one of us have ever connected with another human being like we do (did?) with one another. But for some reason we couldn't move forward. Now, I just found out that he slept with this girl a couple of days ago. I looked at his phone records (we share a plan) and they have talked on the phone for over an hour a couple of times. He has hung out with her the last 3 days in a row, and when he does he completely ignores me. When I am with him (which we have seen each other just about everyday since the break up) he cries and tells me he is confused, I even slept with him again after he told me he slept with her, and it was THE BEST MOST PASSIONATE SEX EVER. We both just cried, he said he misses me and my smell. But then he goes off with her again. I just saw him and we talked for a couple of hours. It was okay, he is feeling really confused about this new girl. Saying he just has this desire to "fix" her because she is an angry person, but he doesn't understand why he is drawn to her. We made out passionately, it was nice. Then I left and I called him and he was so closed off and cold. He wouldn't respond to me, and kept saying "What are you waiting for?..."shouldn't it be a sign to you that I never call you or ask you to hang out?" "Well maybe I would if I had a chance since you're always the one to call and text"..."I don't know what you want me to say" "I;m just waiting for this conversation to be over so I can hang up"....It made me feel so small. He is either stark cold and avoiding me and hateful....or he is crying to me, saying he misses me...he has even proposed marriage before and once said "If I ever broke up with you, I would just spend my life trying to find someone just like you".....What gives? I cannot take this anymore. I am in so much pain and every time I leave him I just know he is going to hang out with her eventually and my stomach is in knots, there is a lump in my throat. I know I should move on but I can't. I love and care about this man so much, but it is starting to feel hopeless. The thought of him with another woman has me sick. I can't eat, can't sleep. This is just so far from what he said he wanted to fall back into with someone. Ughhh. So much pain here, not just because of what he is doing, but how he is treating me in the process. I don't even know who this person is anymore. Has anyone experienced this type of pain? How did it turn out for you? And is it possible that I could get him back?
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