Moemone Posted May 4, 2013 Posted May 4, 2013 After going to dinner with my AP ( he is not married) I realize that i am not my self with me. I was at dinner and I just wasnt my self i wasnt get things right i didnt know what to wear to begin with. At dinner i notice that he was constantly clicking his phone and he was texing someone. not his gf On our way home, I placed my hand on his laps and he said were you doing this with all your bfs, placing your hands on their laps while they drive. (theres this guy that he acuse me of sleeping with) he said "i know you placed your hands on his laps too so this is nothing special" I told him the truth which is I never touch the guy and we never made love we were just friends. I got angry and said that I am lying for something so petty, he was angry all night. I felt like he was angry for no reason at all. I slept at his place and he still didnt say a word to. I fell asleep, this morning he didnt say much to me and i felt hurt i stayed silence and he played in his phone well he was texting and i sat there crying. I went to him and ask him what did i do? why are you doing this to me? i took his phone and drop it well he broke mine and we faught. My head hurts because he bounce it on the floor. I cant fight him all i do is hold him I am still in Pain. He doesnt get me I feel like I'm begging for respect, love, care and attention and i have been begging for it. Today i decided that I am gonna go and never return. I am always in pain. my heart aches and I am always crying. The sad thing is im feeling like im the one doing things wrong, if maybe i dont say anything it would prob work, if maybe i accept the lil effort he seems to be making it would......I do know that i can do better i just want to go I am always hurting. Im not doing this again in my life. crying Tears I dont know what to say or do, he told me that he doesnt care.
spice4life Posted May 4, 2013 Posted May 4, 2013 After going to dinner with my AP ( he is not married) I realize that i am not my self with me. I was at dinner and I just wasnt my self i wasnt get things right i didnt know what to wear to begin with. At dinner i notice that he was constantly clicking his phone and he was texing someone. not his gf On our way home, I placed my hand on his laps and he said were you doing this with all your bfs, placing your hands on their laps while they drive. (theres this guy that he acuse me of sleeping with) he said "i know you placed your hands on his laps too so this is nothing special" I told him the truth which is I never touch the guy and we never made love we were just friends. I got angry and said that I am lying for something so petty, he was angry all night. I felt like he was angry for no reason at all. I slept at his place and he still didnt say a word to. I fell asleep, this morning he didnt say much to me and i felt hurt i stayed silence and he played in his phone well he was texting and i sat there crying. I went to him and ask him what did i do? why are you doing this to me? i took his phone and drop it well he broke mine and we faught. My head hurts because he bounce it on the floor. I cant fight him all i do is hold him I am still in Pain. He doesnt get me I feel like I'm begging for respect, love, care and attention and i have been begging for it. Today i decided that I am gonna go and never return. I am always in pain. my heart aches and I am always crying. The sad thing is im feeling like im the one doing things wrong, if maybe i dont say anything it would prob work, if maybe i accept the lil effort he seems to be making it would......I do know that i can do better i just want to go I am always hurting. Im not doing this again in my life. crying Tears I dont know what to say or do, he told me that he doesnt care. The bolded part above is what this guy is about and it is all he will ever be concerned with. He will never have the capacity to give you love and respect because he doesn't love and respect himself. It's called projection. He is projecting all of his own feelings of inadequecy onto you so he doesn't have carry them. That is why you are feeling responsible and like its all your fault. YOU ARE NOT at fault - this is him and how he handles relationships! Do not blame yourself in any way shape or form. When you walk this time make sure you stay gone because he will never change and you will always end up feeling this way. RUN!!! 1
Author Moemone Posted May 4, 2013 Author Posted May 4, 2013 Believe me I am leaving I cant take the pain again I am too young for it. Its too much for me 2
ThatJustHappened Posted May 5, 2013 Posted May 5, 2013 After going to dinner with my AP ( he is not married) I realize that i am not my self with me. I was at dinner and I just wasnt my self i wasnt get things right i didnt know what to wear to begin with. At dinner i notice that he was constantly clicking his phone and he was texing someone. not his gf On our way home, I placed my hand on his laps and he said were you doing this with all your bfs, placing your hands on their laps while they drive. (theres this guy that he acuse me of sleeping with) he said "i know you placed your hands on his laps too so this is nothing special" I told him the truth which is I never touch the guy and we never made love we were just friends. I got angry and said that I am lying for something so petty, he was angry all night. I felt like he was angry for no reason at all. I slept at his place and he still didnt say a word to. I fell asleep, this morning he didnt say much to me and i felt hurt i stayed silence and he played in his phone well he was texting and i sat there crying. I went to him and ask him what did i do? why are you doing this to me? i took his phone and drop it well he broke mine and we faught. My head hurts because he bounce it on the floor. I cant fight him all i do is hold him I am still in Pain. He doesnt get me I feel like I'm begging for respect, love, care and attention and i have been begging for it. Today i decided that I am gonna go and never return. I am always in pain. my heart aches and I am always crying. The sad thing is im feeling like im the one doing things wrong, if maybe i dont say anything it would prob work, if maybe i accept the lil effort he seems to be making it would......I do know that i can do better i just want to go I am always hurting. Im not doing this again in my life. crying Tears I dont know what to say or do, he told me that he doesnt care. He cracked your head against the floor?? I hope you called the police!
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